It was the end of the summer a few years back. I sensed colossal shifts bubbling under the surface after spending a few years following the pull of my soul. Life was relatively miraculous and joyful. My outer world largely reflected the peace I felt within - a direct result of only making those choices aligned with my soul. When I felt out of kilter I soon returned to centre by following my higher truth...

Late one evening, I felt moved to lay upon a green and lilac blanket in the middle of the sitting room floor. I relaxed, closed my eyes and felt the awesome stillness of the moment. Nothing more. Meditation was new to me. Neither seeking nor efforting, my only agenda was to surrender to the experience and trust the evolutionary journey.

As I let go, I was over come by a deep sense of peace. All thoughts faded into the realms of silence, whilst the universe fell away from beneath me. I was on the edge of the void with a soulful longing to reunite with the depths of beingness.

A feeling so profound came over me that words could only offer a signpost hinting at it's fullness. I was embodied of the space between the spaces - an experience of non-identified pure presence. In retrospect, I am quite thankful that I was unable to engage in thought at the time - perhaps my brain would have fried to a crisp!

Then it happened.

Out of nowhere a megalithic wave of energy surged from the base of my spine and out through the crown of my head. A bolt of energetic 'lightning' sent my entire body into a huge convulsion (somewhat like you'd imagine if someone had died and been brought back to life with a paramedic defibrillator machine!). From lying in a relaxed position, my entire body tensed into the height of rigidity as I was thrown upwards and then immediately collapsing into a heap on the floor. I felt like a filled sponge being violently squeezed out.

Clearly once was not enough - this happened seven times in rapid succession. Each time I'd experience a bolt of lightning from the base through to and beyond the crown accompanied with an involuntary convulsion, throughout my entire physical body. The last vestiges of the 'me' that I thought I was were being shattered, whilst my entire being was infused with universal life energy.

It was utterly exhausting! This event didn't come with a text book explanation so initially I felt major disorientation. It's not every day that you have seven 'lightning bolts' shoot through your body! It's not the type of thing that you learn about when growing up. Prior to the experience, I had no concept in my brain about kundalini energy. All I knew was that I was being shown something exceptionally powerful and life changing.

My whole frame of relating to the world had been shattered again (it had happened once before in previous years during my Awakening, although the universe had deemed that I was not at that time ready for a full blown kundalini activation). My body felt peculiar. I struggled to understand that it had anything to do with 'me', unsure how I was able to move my limbs. When I did, I observed with astonished fascination as if it were the first time I'd been infused into a physical body! I then gazed puzzled into the mirror. I didn't recognise my own image!

Over the next few weeks I encountered constant experiences of soul infusion and spiritual intensity. I was taken through a myriad of different experiences providing an experiential education into the intricacies of kundalini awareness.

One day I would experience the left side of my body become infused with darkness, whilst the right side would be infused of the purest light. As I learned to embrace it all, I would experience myself as the non-identified presence arising from it.

Another day I would experience intertwining columns of light rise up my spine as the universe fell away. There would be intense surges of electrifying energy that served to show me any internal blockages within my bodily vehicles (of which I have now come to learn that we have quite a few).

I was caused to notice, that unless I completely embodied the flow of higher consciousness, then the extraordinary energy would rebound relentlessly around my body. I was guided to go into the heart and surrender all the areas where I was 'holding on' so that universal life force could flow with fluency.

Whilst this period of my life was interspersed with times of pure presence, the integration was at times almost too intense to bare. I asked if I'd been given far more than I could handle, yet in my heart I knew that this was on my destined pathway. I learned the necessity to let go and surrender into the experience. Each time I did, I felt an infusion of soul into my beingness that far surpassed anything I'd previously come to know.

I was no longer following the pull of my soul, instead I was living AS the soul in every moment!

This I believe is the point of a full kundalini awakening - to allow the completeness of universal life energy to flow through our entire being in order that our soul can fully infuse and act as our primary vehicle of expression. This truly is spiritual evolution.

The journey of spiritual unfolding is unique for us all, yet this chapter in our journey does not always come easily. Depending on what we have incarnated here to encounter, it may be more gentle than my experience or even more intense. It may happen in untold different ways. One thing I do know, is that when we are ready, it will happen of its own accord as a result of following the authentic path of the soul. It can be infinitely helpful to engage with practices that can help us attune to universal life energy beforehand, thus achieving a familiarisation with the process.

I would highly recommend against forcing the energy to 'rise'. I have heard so many stories of kundalini awakenings that have happened and gone awry! It will take us to the edge of all we thought we knew and be deeply destabilising if we are not ready.

My advice is universal... if you come up against an area where you are 'stuck' - go to the heart of it. Deny nothing! Embrace the all of it with profound self honesty and you'll find the 'Way of the Heart' animates your being and kundalini activation happens of its own natural accord. Be prepared for the world to change though. After the miraculous change that signals your Transfiguration, nothing will ever be the same again!!!

Trinity