11/11/09: Remembering past lives...


Delving into our karma
I'd never been interested in past lives. Nor had I found compulsion to remember what I'd experienced before this life time. Yet beneath me bubbled a rising well of the past offering hints and fragrances of the joys and suffering of lives forgotten to me. Having always been one to peel away that which no longer serves my evolution, I trusted that those aspects of me that I needed to remember would be unveiled, if and when the time was right...

Then it happened!
My first past life memory was divine... When my beloved partner first came into my presence in this life time, the bubbling spring of memories began to overflow at last. Somehow I knew him. I related to him in a way I had to no other. I bit my tongue on several occasions when my mouth almost echoed terms of endearment that were only fitting for long term beloved partners. I shocked myself and watched curiously at the stirring within my soul.

The first time his gentle hand touched my hair, I saw a flash of myself as a celtic lady with a long green dress bathing in the light of his arms. I joyously danced through the meadow. The earth caressed my bare feet whilst the wind brushed my skin. The memory was a breathtaking journey of absolute love and unity. A gentle easing into the world of my past lives. The key that unlocked the memory was his touch, for it was exactly the same touch that had ignited the passion in the life we'd shared together before.

It happened to me not out of curiosity or intentional regression, but because I was at the place where I was destined to remember. I would love to say that all of my memories from that day forward captured such serenity. Alas, not many have done! Since that day, the universe deemed me ready to embark on a journey back through the eons, even to times and places I did not know existed. At first, I began to resist such memories, sensing that many incarnations had not been particularly pleasant. I did not want to remember. Yet it was on my path to remember and I have never found peace in my heart by denying destiny.

Each memory would be spontaneously sparked whilst I was getting on with everyday things. Sometimes it would be a word. Other times it would be a particular energy, feeling, fragrance or a replay of events that prized apart the world of secrets that had been hidden from me for so long.

At first I recognised that I was only being taken to past lives that held a key to conundrums that I faced in the present day. There would be something I'd learned before that I now needed to draw upon for evolutionary purposes. These are by far the most magical and exciting, as if re-initiated into the wonderful traditions of the past. However, the greatest reason that I needed to go back into the past, was to release the attachments that I'd unknowingly carried like heavy chains.

I began to see that karma is created by holding on. In fact karma is created by holding on to just about anything; fear, attachments (whether they be perceived as 'good' or 'bad' or something that either we did or was done to us and we had not yet found peace in our hearts with. It is karma that creates the world we see around us (at least until the day we have processed all of the karma and then something else happens).

When I began having my first heart-wrenching memories, I saw that I'd carried the energy of the burden of these with me throughout the eons. Suddenly I noticed the effect of these permeating into my current life. They were the haunting aspects of life that would not let me rest for any length of time without feeling discontentment or lack of peace. It happens to us all. To me they were like 'demons' that came out periodically to make sure I never found comfort with life. Such discomfort was quickened by the fact that I sought not to aneasthetise myself with the trappings of modern life. This meant that river of universal consciousness could flow through me and clear anything that was holding back my spiritual evolution. Judging by the torrent of past life memories I have cleared, it worked!

The journey of clearing karma is very challenging. At times I feel as if I have cleansed and released so much that I surely there can be no more - but the barrel seems bottomless in my presence.

In truth I know it is my destiny. The only way to release myself from karma is to embrace it with open arms as and when it is unveiled. It's as if I look it straight in the eye and watch it dissolve in the light of pure presence. Most of our karma seems to form in one of the multitude of past lives that we have. We don't have to relive everything in order to let it go yet sometimes we have no other choice.

There are different ways to have past life memories. What we encounter depends on what we need to experience in the best interests of our journey. However, I don't believe that we are afforded the luxury of choosing what happens. Our choice lies in the ability to surrender into the experience or not.

On the upper end of the scale, memories are relived - as if we were in that exact experience - right now. The only way out (or more importantly to let it go forever) is to fully be in it and find our deepest heart of acceptance within the storm, no matter what events took place. Less intense memories may simply be like the sensation of little butterflies brushing through our senses with memories, sights and visions from afar, as if observing a play from the front row. These are often the easiest to deal with as we are often more detached (almost like third person observations) and can softly process from the outside in, reaching out a gentle hand of light to ourselves.

Our history is uniquely ours alone. There is fine balance of honouring our past, yet not being attached to it, no matter who we were! Our stories offer a rainbow of colourful insight. They make us who we are and yet take us apart again. They give us the gift of experience so that we shine the light and illuminate the path for those who will come after us. We ignite these memories to let go of the burden of fear that we have carried for so long and also to release the inner strength of surrender to the divine flow of the universe that is our destiny. It's not about having an easy life or an easy history, it's about unveiling our soul through the enriching experiences along the way. Our most challenging times hold the potential for us to shine the brightest light.

Our task is to let go and let the river of universal consciousness take us. We're taken into the heart of all things until the river and we become one.

With Love
Trinity

Chris Bourne's picture

Powerful post, powerful karma

This is a truly powerful post. And having shared some of those heart-rending, gut-churning experiences with you, I can completely empathise.

When we contemplate for a moment the disharmony and destruction mankind has endured through history, and then realise that you and we have lived through and experienced those times, it is no wonder that are current incarnations can be so influenced by the density.

As you rightly and importantly say though, there is no point trying to seek out these experiences by doing past-life-regressions until our destiny takes us there. Only then, are we likely to be sufficiently evolved to be able to endure the karmic effects and yet still right ourselves in the storm.

When this happened to me, I remember a powerful line in a song coming to me "tie yourself to the mast my friend, you know the storm will end". In my darkest hour, it kept me sane, it kept me centred.

And this is the key to processing karma. Always finding our centre. Letting the pain wash through us, bathing in it, drinking it in through every pore, until finally, the dam breaks, the dross is washed away and we expand into the cosmos.

As you also point out Trin, sometimes karma will be experienced more gently. And how do we know if we're being influenced by it? Watch for incidents where our emotional response to a particular incident suddenly seems to blow up out of all proportion. This is a likely indicator. We don't need to create the exact circumstances of the past life, we just need to feel that energy.

Indeed it's not at all necessary to relive the exact details of the past. To do so risks forming an identity around that energy. Remember what we really are, is what we feel ourselves to be right here, right now, in this moment.

Karma is our path to salvation. Embrace it when it arises, and at the same time, keep watching for the key that unlocks the door and lets go of the past forever!

Chris

Ben's picture

differentiating between karmic and early life influences

this is a powerful sharing - thanks for posting it!
It raised a question for me, and that is how can people differentiate between a strong pattern or distortion (and its influences) that was created in this life time (early childhood for example) and one created in a past life (assuming such a thing is not always accompanied by visions or past life memories)? Is it just a question of intensity? I believe I've experienced influences of both, and generally they've felt pretty different, but there have been times when the influence/situation is more subtle and the root of it not always clear.
Presumably sometimes there's a cross over (past life karma influencing and building conditioning in this lifetime).
Another question of course is... does it matter? do we actually need to differentiate between the two, or to recognise which of our experiences are karmic or not? rather as you suggest we can just observe, surrender and work with/through whatever arises without trying to label it, and when we have a more obvious karmic experience we just work through it in the same way.

Trinity Bourne's picture

karma and past lives

Thank you for the question Ben.

In my experience, patterns and 'distortions' happen because of our karma. So yes there most certainly is a cross over from one incarnation to the next. Patterns/distortions usually seem to be created in this life time because of karma that first started in a past life. On the other hand they may be created afresh during current experience. That wouldn't automatically make it easier to process.

I don't believe that it is always necessary to know when the distortion/karma first originated. It doesn't always serve us to be party to such details. In my experience we are shown what we need to see and the rest is superfluous. The important factor is whether or not we can let go of our attachment to it.

I would say that, in my experience, the intensity is not a valuable gauge when it comes to working out where the karma started from. Intensity tends to be related to our level of attachment rather than the time frame.

Does that answer the question? Please feel free to ask or exchange more. It a great topic Smile

Trin
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Chris Bourne's picture

Karmic imprints

Hi Ben,

Great questions and very pertinent ones as people begin to process their karma of the ages.

I find myself in a place where I tend to feel and know people's karma. Not all the time nor with every person, but rather when they are at a stage to process it.

What I observe is that someone can be engaged in a fairly 'normal' kind of situation but suddenly it can take on seemingly monumental importance. Anyone from the outside looking in might feel that person is getting things quite heavily out of perspective.

The karma creates mirroring experiences to the past life event. So for example, someone might remember being at war and being quite horribly injured (as happened to me), now a fairly innocuous accident (say a twisted ankle), suddenly sparks off the energy taking the person through the experiences of the earlier event.

If we are watching synchronicites and following the inner pull, a picture will be painted of the situation. So for example I was drawn into a church and my attention directed to a monument to the fallen in the 'great' world wars. Then I was drawn inexplicably into a blind alley where my attention was drawn to a person hobbling on crutches through a narrow alley way. The inner knowing landed that it was a message meant for me. This had all been sparked off by a deep consciousness body massage which began in my lower back, but started releasing shooting pains through my body as the massage progressed to my legs.

It soon became clear to me that I'd strayed into a minefield and been blown up. Which is really interesting because I served in this lifetime as an Officer in the Royal Engineers where one of my roles was to breech minefields! You see this is exactly how it works - if we look at the past incidents and experiences in this life, there will be many clues as to what took place.

The karma helps us unfold new gifts. So for me, I remembered at the time I'd had a strong trust in the divine but I'd not trusted myself in how I could integrate that into physical feeling and application - I tended to live on blind faith. So in the event, my right leg (representing the spiritual connection) was only partially scathed, but the left one (representing the physical connection) was completely lost.

Another amazing synchronicity supporting this happened as I acquired a new car at the same time as I was processing the karmic imprint. Within a short space of time, the left tyre was completely shredded followed shortly afterwards by a slow puncture in the right tyre!!! You see this is exactly how synchronicity works - absolutely EVERYTHING has a message and NOTHING happens by chance. There are signs everywhere pointing to greater self realisation.

What transpired for me as a direct result of the karmic event, was that I couldn't fully feel universal life energy right down to my toes. Although I quickly learned to trust implicitly in Right Action, there was a lack of surety about my ability to bring about Right Outcome into the physical world through the left side of my body. That has now changed as a direct result of dealing with the karmic imprint.

In general, even though we may not recall the exact situation or details, people may feel the whole pain and tightness again in their body. If they experienced emotional suffering at the time, that could come back through in equal measure this time.

So if a person is tending to react completely out of proportion to the situation, it tends to point towards karmic experience as opposed to just an ordinary distortion.

They are challenging experiences indeed!

Chris

Ben's picture

illuminating responses

thankyou both for the illuminating responses!

thanks Trin - its interesting to consider how distortions/attachments in this life can be interwoven with those not processed from other lifetimes. and presumably this goes for the effect (on individuals) of collective karma too - in regards the patterning/conditioning of society?
Another thing that came out of your post was that its possible for people to become attached to 'the glamour' of their potential past lives or past life experiences (probably before they really get involved in the nitty gritty of processing them!). It seems like the idea of past lives has been glamorised to a certain degree in some spiritual circles (e.g. when one person believes they were a well know historical figure or an emperor or something and 'invests' or attaches to that identity) and I imagine that this rather than help process associated karma may in fact just bolster the experience to be worked through! Perhaps that's why we're only shown what we need to see, as you say...

'In my experience we are shown what we need to see and the rest is superfluous. The important factor is whether or not we can let go of our attachment to it.'
It feels an important point.

Chris, thankyou too for such a powerful example of how karma and past life experiences can affect and be reflected into this experience, on many different levels.

The main points I took from your post were that
"The karma creates mirroring experiences to the past life event" and that through synchronicities we can see what these events are all about and how to process them.
and that such an incident may arise out of a seemingly 'everyday situation' which can then appear from the outside as if an individual is getting things "quite heavily out of perspective", the incidence seeming to take on great importance, because energetically that's what it feels like.

So by watching our feelings and the synchronisities (of course!) around what is unfolding, we may be able to receive a deeper understanding of the influence or event (whether karmic or not) and if we remain unattached and surrendered in it, we can discover how to process and move through it, and then we can work through and release it.
thankyou both for sharing

Ben

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Were you Cleopatra :0)

Ah yes Ben, it's seems so common that people get caught up in the details of past lives or as you say the glamour of being a recognised figure.

In my experience the purpose of remembering is either to let go so that we can evolve or to recall information that is helpful to our current incarnation.

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And then.

Hi Chris, Trin and Ben

This is really interesting reading, so thought I'd add my own experience into this.

I started having past life flashbacks as a child, possibly triggered by emotions, but it was only as an adult that I started to appreciate what they were and why I had them. I've never been intentionally regressed and yet have triggered quite a few past life flashbacks when the time was right for me to remember and release the emotions. I found that rememberng these lives and finding the mirror within helped me release the corresponding issues which helped move forward on my path.

I haven't been anybody famous or influential but I have been some amazing people in their own right who's experiences and lifetimes have taught me so much in this.

Michelle x

Trinity Bourne's picture

Past lives

Hi Michelle,
Thank you for sharing on my thread here. I haven't found many others who have spontaneously regressed into past lives. It's wonderful to know that you have naturally found a way of working through these.
Trin
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