I am deeply stirred by this article, because I feel it so strongly these days, that I have to do something! I mean that I have really intense energies coming through me and a strong sense of purpose and serving.

I was asking: what am I here to do?! What is my purpose? Why am I here? What have I come for? and all those usual questions.

I felt I am ruining it all, that I am interrupting and distorting what I am here to do. But I got my answer: I am ALSO human, maybe not exactly, maybe I don't really get it right and don't understand things here, but I AM partially human. And therefore I am not supposed to be perfect, but only do what I can and feel and that is all. It is enough.
This was a big realisation for me.

And I feel that when I allow myself to make this inner shift from totally serving myself into serving all, going through my process not for the sake of myself, but for the sake of earth, people, of all and everything, and open and just trust that I am being loved no matter what I do or feel or what mistakes I make and that I am guided and watched after, it gives me fuel, inspiration and I can feel energy streaming through me. And I let it through me out.

This is different from what I experienced before, like owning it, being too focused on myself. Now it feels like I am only a conductor, a vehicle. And it feels then that I am fulfilling my purpose.

About the Israeli video: unfortunately, I also encounter some people here who are thirsty for war. But I also can see why and how it is happening. And with them too, it has nothing to do with people living in the arab countries, but rather some general idea, some national grudge to all those who 'hurt poor jews' in past and fear and hostility towards those who might hurt them in the future.

So we are dealing here with collective jewish karma (heavy and tough) too and not only conditioning, political stuff and so on. Lots of work...

Thank you Chris,

this article really comes with a great timing for me. I have just recently become aware of the level of frustration I feel. It totally shuts down my throat. How slow everything moves, how slow I evolve and work through my stuff, how long it takes for people around to work through theirs. I am sometimes angry at 3D, even at the universe. Everthing is so upside-down, and I can see the amounts of pain people hold in their systems, the amount of suffering in the world, it is somtimes disheartening.

Also I often question how effective my work as a coach really is, because people might be totally clear within a session - only to go out, forget everything, and do the exact opposite. Sometimes there is so much compassion for people in their pain, that I would like to magic it away. It seems too much, all work and progress too slow.

Like in the other thread around energy healing, all this is a very deep reaching subject for me and my life purpose. Should I be healing? Is it really helpful to people on a soul-level? Is there really no "short way" and everybody has to heal and figure out everything on their own, to be empowered on the deepest level? Or are all the blockages just energetic rubbish, that can easyly be cleared out by a healer, woithout depriving the soul of anything? I don't know.

But again and again I re-discover the invitation to let go of all attachment to an outcome, to just keep attuning inside, keep attuning to the void. To let go of the need to fix or change anything and just hold the frequency, just stay open.

Then I get the picture of a dense energy-layer/grid around the earth, a collective field we are all connected to. And people who begin to awaken are like holes in that layer, so light can come through and touch the earth. The more these people can let go of their mind and be empty, the bigger the opening in the layer is. We are just holding the door open. It is not our energy doing anything, it is us allowing energy to do what it wants to. We do not have to do anything really. It just happens.

It is sometimes hard, there is such a pull to "do something", "fix it", also a need to see results - and a need to take credit too. And a doubt whether I just want to belive the energy-work has some effects: Seeing all the condition of the world and people around, can we really sit around silently "working with energy"? Should we not run to help and heal wherever and whoever we can? It is sometimes confusing me.

I guess can just keep exploring all this. I sense there are big realizations to be made for me.

David

David,

I feel with every word you say!
I have just had an experience yesterday (a mother in labour) where my trust in her own ability to go through it proved the right thing to do, so of course now it is easy for me to feel more trusting about this whole issue in general,
but oh dear!
how much I know what you are talking about...

Beyond your thoughts, here is a speacial thank you for showing a part of your heart here. I really appreciate that!

I was also very thankful for your question some weeks back in the other thread. Go on sharing about this
Reka

Hi Chris & David

Chris, I can see parallels with what you say in my work as a mediator: neighbours A & B come to us with a dispute over parking; we get them round the table and they agree to a rota to share the parking space – great, all sorted. However, if there is an underlying reason for the dispute eg A is jealous of B’s lifestyle, or B is still bearing a grudge from an historical incident etc, you can guarantee that within a short time, A & B will be back with a different dispute, and so it escalates. Sometimes they are prepared to address the underlying issue, sometimes there is denial so there is no progress towards resolution. If a mediator gets a sense that this might be the case, part of the ‘art’ of mediation is to sensitively bring the issue to their awareness to give them the opportunity to explore it. We would never offer a solution, a ‘fix’, but we facilitate them finding one for themselves, if they are willing to do so. And if they aren’t, we just have to accept that – it’s their path!

What you say is interesting David as I had a similar conversation with a healer recently. The way she sees it is that it is possible the karmic issue has been dealt with /realised and the physical symptom is just a residue and can be cleared away; sometimes the realisation comes at the same time as (or shortly after)the pain is removed; sometimes a karmic lesson is ready to be released as we no longer need it and it can just go as we have learnt it on some level, not necessarily consciously yet. She also thinks stuff can be released via the healer. I just don't know! As you say, 'you can only feel what feels right' and that may change tomorrow or next year, and what's 'right' for you may be different to what's 'right' for me.

Becky

The problem as I see it with miracle healing is that it does not offer real empowerment. Even if it's possible for the healer to remove another soul's karma it would still perpetuate the karma of dependence. The soul would always be dependent on the healer rather than feeling empowered to self realize. This would create limiting relationships and inequality between souls and wouldn't be aligned with the universal flow.

But I do share many of your frustrations David, it does feel so damn slow sometimes. I would like to ask you Chris: what actually constitute real self-realization? How do we know if we have truly integrated a lesson? I have often felt I've already learnt a certain lesson only to discover later I'm still very attached when the situation arises again. This is very frustrating as I easily get optimistic about future only to be confronted with harsh reality again and bring me back to the truth. It can feel very humbling when this happens, yet I still don't seem to learn, or rather I felt like I learnt the lesson but then forgot! I do know that I have very bad long term memory, my past feels like a blur to me, I know only the outline but not much of the details.

Lei

I feel moved to share few words from my perspective for anyone interested in the art of working with energy in a benevolent sense.

Karma is the balancing effect of the universe that gives us a 'pre-enlightened' or 'pre-ascended' state of existence. Before we have fully integrated the opposing polarities of 'light' and 'dark' within ourselves and fully self realised we have karma. Many people are in a place where they are moving away from recreating karma for themselves. This is reflected in the fact that they don't feel pulled to remove the karma from another either. Their presence alone, in being 'themselves' sends out a vibration that can ignite the same vibration in another. A vibration that is already there. The other, will then find the same unravelling of karma happening as a natural process.

The funny thing is that it is IMPOSSIBLE to remove the karma of another person. We can appear to remove it. We can remove the effect of it. But it will always recreate again in order to bring attention to itself UNTIL a person has resolved themselves at a soul level. It may take a whole life time to recreate, depending on the readiness of a person to evolve beyond it. But it will recreate eventually.

Anyone attempting to or appearing to remove karma in another person is confused. The are effectively projecting their own desire to be free of karma on to others. ONE BIG MIRROR!

By doing that you simply build karma for yourself in attempting to manipulate the energy field of another.

Thanks for sharing your experience, Trinity. But I'm skeptical about the following point you were making.

When people have a rapid spiritual awakening, in all the cases I've observed, it has to do with how much they'd already evolved in previous lifetimes. It is determined by how much awareness they've already integrated.

To me one indication of past life spiritual attainment is childhood awareness. Many highly evolved souls seem to be much more aware than most people since their childhood and tend to have a deeper inner knowing about nature of reality, and have already seen through the veils of illusions to some extent. It's also likely they already had various awakening experiences prior to their full blown awakening. But in the cases of Eckhart Tolle and Byron Katie, they show no signs of childhood spiritual awareness. In fact, they were completely non spiritual. I feel what triggered their radical awakening (it actually felt more like radical transfiguration to me) is the extreme intensity of suffering they endured prior to their radical change where their conventional frameworks of references were completely shuttered, they had to go through a long period of integration to become functional again in society.

Lei

Yes you're right. Although I asked the question out of curiosity, on another level I don't really care so much what happens to them, I've got my own path to walk and the journey ahead of me.

Lei

Such an interesting thread...

First of all, I wanted to say that I see the same picture as Chris and resonate with Trin's comment below "Helping others..." completely.

Most of my life I never wanted to help anybody at all! I just did whatever I felt, including what people on the outside might see as help. And of course, I feel empathy and compassion and an energy rising to do something about all this, but it again was never to "help" anybody.

But I did and do get the pull to serve. It is very different from wanting to help/heal/save others. I feel that this kind of 'spontaneous serving state' is very empowering both for me and for others. It causes me to open and unravel more and then I feel exactly what Chris and Trin are saying.

Also I lose any need to understand what is going on then and just go with whatever arises, including feelings. It might be that to serve is to express what I feel.

So like David I asked: what is healing about? And I chose to cooperate with a 'confused healer' recently to see what it is like.

I felt coercion, I felt clumsy intrusion into my field and resistance in me arising, it is this kind of feeling when somebody wants me to be some way and trying to make me be that way. I didn't feel disempowered because I've chosen to see how it feels and was observing the effects, but after that I felt anger and like shaking it all off. It was an interesting experience and I felt VERY empowered after that. I promised myself to always listen to my hunch and always trust it.

And today I had a very interesting opposite experience, very down to earth, but a great lesson! One of my colleagues came to ask for help. She was very specific about what she wanted me to do. I did it, but then started to try to help her solve the problem. In the end she left almost crying and I felt angry and frustrated.

And then I got it! I crossed the line. I was HELPING her, trying to. And I just knew the difference straight away. Between being centered and serving and losing it and helping.

There is also a bit of pride and arrogance in this helping/healing thing. Whereas when I am watching myself in all circumstances, I lose my pride because I see where I am distorting the flow, so I anyway feel that whatever I do I am working on how I am clear and open. It keeps the line well.

I do have abilities, like unraveling blockages and denseness with my hands, feeling others' tightness and blockages in me and unraveling them too, etc. But I never feel myself doing anything. And also I make sure I have a soul's permission (it's hard to explain how it feels, but you just know). It is like a silent energetic dialogue and it feels just right. It demands some humbleness, openness and careful listening and is an opposite of being confident and 100% sure about what you are doing in advance (before the moment is here).

And there is always a lesson or inner work for me too.
In the end I feel like saying thank YOU

Hi Chris,

You wrote "Even though it may feel to the helper that there's some kind of boost inside, it also makes them dependent on the energy they receive when they give healing."

There is usually some kind of 'boost' when interacting with somebody. I feel that it is very different to even meditate (be aware and align) alone or with other people, in a group or even just one friend. Usually there is an amplification happening and an energy exchange. So the result is this boost.

And it feels like when working with somebody, even if it is just a spontaneous conversation, I feel that because I feel responsible for other being now it makes me ask for help more than just for myself (it's like I am lazy or letting myself to deviate a bit).

So I get it is not a boost that is a problem, but rather owning it, and also the kind of boost. I believe that many already know how it feels when it goes to ego (and inflating it) or when it is just an upliftment.

I watch these. I feel sometimes like I am proud of myself or this soft sense of I am so spiritual, useful, etc... And it is ok, I just then look at why I feel it, what happened. It could be that I gave more energy than received and now my system is trying to justify this sacrifice by the pleasure in feeling like I helped, for example. So this is another one to watch - energy exchange. Another line. But this is just one example.

After all there is no point to judge myself for doing it 'wrong', but learn from it I wouldn't want to also impose to do it the right way and agree with David, that sometimes the right thing to do is the wrong thing, so both people can learn from it.

Spot on as usual... just witness with a pure heart and surrender to the universe, that's all that's required .... as pure instruments we are the eyes and ears of God, because we are one with God (aka Spirit/source/universe - whatever you are comfortable with)...our witnessing (watching/listening) with a pure and innocent mind shines a light on it and exposes the darkness to the universe and our pure hearts full of compassion and pure love wish for ease of all suffering and imprisonment in all its forms of those involved - God/Spirit resides in our hearts and sees all from there - this is why its important to have a pure heart - then we humbly surrender it to the universe without expectation of what the result will be and trust because God knows what is best and who are we too say what people need to go through to bring them closer to the source, it may all just be part of the divine plan and we humbly respect that and let our parents (God and the Holy Spirit) take care of us children .... and its with that letting go that miracles happen because we have freewill and and its our choice to do it our self and try to control it or let go and let God....we are truly loved and respected by the universe and I am sure the universe has a good chuckle at us when we try to control things and think we can do things by ourselves like innocent little children getting frustrated that things don't work when trying to work things out on our own ... there is no "I" only "we" - we are co-creators - we are family

Dear Anna,
how much I resonate with what you are saying here!

The world around us is full of Masters, Teachers, Healers, Helpers: our children, others' children, and even plants and animals.

Most of all,what is touching about their healing is the total selflessness of it.

This really answers some of the questions mentioned here, above - for me at least.
Love to All, and to you Anna
Reka

If you are blocked, lost and unable to process, then that was ALREADY affecting the field anyway. Even before you knew it. The blockage, was creating exactly the situation that you needed to unveil it to you as well.
The only difference is, now you see it.
Personally, I think it is much better if you are right out there in the open with it to yourself! I would rather know my darkness was there, than live in an illusion that was oblivious to it.

Your pondering? What would serve the field?

Is for you to be YOU! To be real. To be profoundly honest with yourself.

x

I feel you there Yulia, I have experienced many similar situations. I would have the same resistance and self blame in that situation. I dont want to be seen as insane, i dont want to upset a whole roomful of people, but neither do i want to suppress my emotions! What if you just cried your heart out right there in the public, in the wedding? I want to know how far we can really take it in terms of fully being who we are and not suppressing anything! Would you do that Trinity?