Hi Trinity, i know that you're from the 5th dimension. I wonder why it is that even ascended souls seem to have to process so much 'karma' while they are incarnated here on this earth plane. or would you call it karma? and you mentioned that it's a fragment of your soul that you’d abandoned aeons ago, then why is it that you had to retrieve it now while incarnating here? was it related to your previous earthly incarnations?

Thanks for posting this article, i find it very interesting.

Lei

As you know, I am myself on similar 'trip' during recent months, so somehow, even that my process is different from yours, I resonate with every word you wrote here. I feel I somehow 'know' what you are writing.

Since I first descended and went into the 'inner temple' and into the subconscious, I began to find many fragments of myself, locked behind doors and bars. Myriads of pieces.

At first, when I went down that deep into myself, this place didn't want me, it rejected me, mirroring me. It was me who rejected it and everything stored in there, behind those doors.

It feels to me I didn't really know suffering and pain before I began to go into those doors and reconnect with myself.

Almost every time I go in, at first I get shocked, deeply shocked, and I identify, and something in me feels and says "this is hell! I am burning in hell!!!", and I just need to step over this barrier, through acceptance, including the fear to go in and find out who is there door after door.

And then... it's just what it is. When the judgment is gone, it's all quiet, and there is love, a huge infinite embrace, forever. And completeness. It is amazing how this local integration of just one fragment feels like I am 100% complete, at that moment.

Interestingly, I have some alarm built in me. Some part of me begins to really cry in frustration and sorrow is spreading all over my field, if I don't 'visit', forget or won't go into myself. Then I don't have a choice. I go down.

Another thing: I have encountered a couple of pieces I can't, just can't accept. So I accepted that. I go back, visit and leave it for now as it is.

I do the same with a couple of past life experiences I can't let go of, like the drowning one. And I tell myself that it is ok. And then I also feel this 'hug', wholeness, peace, after accepting the non-acceptance, if you know what I mean.

Well, anyway, I feel very grateful for your sharing.

Sending much love,
Yulia

Hi Lei,
There is no escaping karma if we are given to incarnate as with flesh and blood. It is the nature of the universe. Same for us all.
I think that people create all kinds of images about how things should be or what it means to be from here there or anywhere. It's difficult to perceive that which we haven't yet found in our own hearts.
x

Hey Yulia,

Glad it helped...
sending love
Trinity
x

Thank you Trinity for putting your experiences into words and sharing with us. How you describe your underworld, a place where those aspects of soul dwell, lost and apparently disconnected - I really resonate with it. It had not occurred to me before that I could visualise a space, a dark place, which I can go into, reconnect with my forgotten fragments of soul. The same with your doors, Yulia. Somehow it seems more tangible to know I can do this, rather than sensing I have these fragments floating around in the ether, watching them ignite me daily... but somehow being unsure of how to identify them and reconnect. Not sure I'm making sense...I'm completely exhausted tonight and need sleep now!

Love Elly

Hi Elly and All,

One of the main things is realising that the dark space is actually 'OK' and to shut ourselves off from it creates exactly that which we sought to avoid in the first place.

I had an inspiring experience of darkness this morning. I was drawn to the sharp black volcanic rocks on the beach shoreline early in the morning. White water surging up with each incoming wave.

Through the rock, I began to feel my unity with the earth. Yet I felt intimidated by the water of the ocean. This feeling was preventing me from opening up and feeling at one with it. The sheer ferocity of the ocean always makes me step backwards with the deepest resepect and knowing that one swoop could tear me to shreds.

Recognising that whilst, respect, is essenital all life, the intimidation was preventing the flow of unity for me in this instance. So, I 'talked' to the ocean in the form of a chanting song. My communication expressed my feelings and invited communion with the ocean in meditation. I sunk into a meditative journey that led me, energetically, to the bottom of the sea. I saw there the deepest depths of darkness. Yet it was divine. I then saw all of the shades of light inbetween until I reached the surface (which was like a shimmering white light).

I knew this was actually a representation of 'me'. This is all of us. Black, white and all the shades inbetween. The dark depths being equally important as the shimmering light above.

As I experienced this I felt at one with the ocean. I felt safe and prtected because the ocean and I were one. When we become at one with all things we emerge through it and find the 'us' we've been searching for the whole time.

with Love
Trinity
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(Thank you for posting Elly. I always enjoy hearing from you.)

Hi trinity, that was very very interesting for me to read. I thought I had experienced darkness in my earthly life, but I now see it in a whole new way. At this point in my journey I feel there is a black hole just there next to me and at times I get taken on a journey down within it and it's vast and all consuming - I often wonder if I'll make it back out. When I feel it coming I can hear and feel the change of dimension/vibration? and I'm learning how not to fear it and allow it to teach me and allow myself to pass through the pain of my expressions here. The pain of my souls fragmentation. It's a deep deep ride. - and your words really do help. Love to you trinity. I do believe we are not offered to go there until we are ready and can grow from the experiences.

Thank you Trinity for your description of your beautiful experience communing with the ocean. I too feel the awesome power of the waves and connection with the tides ebbing and flowing. Sometimes a fear of the darkness and unknown of the deep waters - especially imagining I am out of my depth or even just thinking about diving down, the sheer space and darkness, the unknown...that truly is a metaphor for looking inside. Yet when we start looking we see beautiful fish, with lights, corals, shafts of light, silver reflections of scales and..treasure How wonderful that you had the courage and wisdom to look further and thus could become one with the ocean. Inspiring
Much love, xx

This writing struck a nerve for me. You are clearly further along on that journey then I. But when I read this, I recognized my own personal movement that I didn't have any words for. Because of the gifts I was given in this lifetime I was also given the greatest amount of darkness and turmoil to deal with to reach a balance with. I had reached a point were I was happy with getting to the place of balance & rejection & distance of this turmoil, but felt that was still more to this process. Because of the pain and suffering I generated from my darkness it has been a deep conflict to ponder there was more to process.
You have provided the light and insight to that next phase in the process. Thank you....It's funny you having those feelings on the same rock as I....