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Overcoming Fear by Embracing Death: Unity Vs. Individuality

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So far in this series of articles on overcoming fear, we've explored how each fear can be traced to a fear of death and also, how our 'web of identity' affects the way we approach our fear. Now, let's go deeper still into the caverns of who we are and look at the source pain behind our fear of death. Whether a final death or an every day challenge to our sense of self, it confronts our identity causing us to be afraid. Thus we often cling to certain traits/identities within us when others are challenged, especially our world view and belief system. It's been shown over and over again that when reminded of our fear of death, we react generously to those who reinforce our beliefs and harshly to those who call our beliefs into question.

    What causes us to behave this way?

Unity Vs, Individuality

As I mentioned in the first article, we come into this world without knowing separation, thus there is no specific individual identity to cling to. This is 'unity consciousness'. However, within the first year of life we will begin to become aware of duality - that is 'me in relation to you'. Whereas newborns will not distinguish between themselves and their mothers, 1 year-olds will be able to see that they are in fact separate entities.

    This causes great pain to an infant, which we call separation anxiety. It is the first time we experience death in our lifetimes; a loss of identity. So, we begin to search for our own identity - what is our place in the world? And here begins the apparent conflict between the two opposing currents of love (unity consciousness) and individuality (separation). Thus a child will flip several times a day between needing to be supported and nurtured and needing to assert their independence, which of course continues into adulthood, if only in a more subtle way.

The two 'flows of consciousness' conflict because of fear - we fear to lose ourselves in unity consciousness, to lose our uniqueness, that which defines us. This is the underlying cause: the 'source pain', of our fear of death. It is the reason so many are not able to meditate deeply - to hit that point where we blend effortlessly into the vastness of the universe.

So how do we consolidate these two apparently opposing flows so that they work together in our lives, so that fear arises less and less? Well, I'm afraid there's no method I can give you. The answer lies in the opposite of method - surrender.....total and utter surrender.

Surrender into nothingness

We have to let the fear arise. We have to make friends with it. We have to let go of our clinging. We have to be prepared to dissolve into nothingness. It takes a deep surrender to let go of our identities. The parent, the musician, the football player, the intellectualist, the lover, the carer, the comedian, the warrior - they must all go. They have to all be thrown into the black hole of nothingness - to my knowledge there is no other way to overcome fear! We have to literally become the black hole. Emptiness.

Here's the thing - this emptiness, this nothingness. There is actually a wholeness to it. A purity of life. Some call it unconditional love. It is not really nothingness but no-thing-ness. There is no object (there is not even a subject) to cling to and produce duality...

...and out of this nothingness, this pure potential, comes our real uniqueness. It is not something that can be easily described, easily labelled, and therefore there is no identity with it. It is just you, pure and simple. It is felt as a kind of 'rightness' in every moment. It is not the rightness of right and wrong, this is a judgement, a duality which leads to identifying with a certain point of view. It is a spontaneous 'knowing' of how to respond to any given situation. It is beyond the mind and yet it is alignment for you and those around you, even if it makes people uncomfortable.

The Magic of the Moment

From here we begin to see how truly magical life really is. Check out this amazing short video with Alan Watts.

    "So therefore, in the course of nature, once we have ceased to see the magic in the world anymore, we're no longer fulfilling natures game of being aware of itself. There's no point anymore. And so we die" - Alan Watts

Life is truly magical - the way it works, all the little miracles, the coincidences, the interactions.


How can we cultivate this feeling inside of us? We have to dive right in. Embrace the good and the bad. Find a passion, what makes you tick and do it without guilt. Dive right in. But don't cling, don't identify - our passions are simply ways of expressing our uniqueness which comes form pure potential, they are not who we are. We are the magic of the universe made incarnate.

With love,

Richard

Richard is a spiritual facilitator with Openhand. He is a carer, psychologist, spiritual coach and writer. He has worked close to death for 7 years and is passionate about helping people to move on in a conscious way, even though society is geared to fight against death. He offers services in Spiritual Facilitation and Conscious Dying on his website Back to the Source and writes regular articles on his blog.

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Open's picture

Great article Richard - thanks for sharing.

Yes I agree, so often its the subconscious fear of death that often prevents people in society from stepping out and taking the risk to truly be them.

Often this is stored in people's karma from what's happened in past life experiences where society persecuted people for doing this.

Confronting the fear of death is an extraordinary liberating thing to do.

Awesome!

Open Ok

Amy's picture

I love this article Richard - thank you. There's a real softness and flow to your writing and such clarity for me in this one. I will be checking out your other stuff Smile I just love (lotta love here!) the way you've blended the 3D psychology with the reality of what is really going on. As an adult I experienced a very painful process of the death of my identity when I left the business world (I was in a very senior position), I was shocked at how much of who I was was wrapped up in this identity. I would freeze when people asked me 'what do you do?' - why is this one of the first questions people ask when meeting someone? I'm guilty of it myself and I'm guessing it's because we're trying to find common ground... But it would floor me at the time and I can't even begin to describe how painful it was to completely break apart that identity and come through the other end. Obviously worth it though Wink

It is not really nothingness but no-thing-ness. There is no object (there is not even a subject) to cling to and produce duality... Love it! Okay, article crush over for now Wink

Hi Richard, great to 'read' you.

I very much resonated with your words here. Wow 'we have to literally become the black hole' thank you friend.

Do people really want to hear that I wander? I don't think many embark on the spiritually journey and willingly trade something for nothing. There seems to be quite a scramble on the path to replace what is felt to be lost by more identifiers - and you can't blame anyone for that. We dance around the edges of the black hole in many guises of fear. And like you say the nothingness alchemises into fullness once the fear is transcended. For me it's like trying to go through the eye of the needle - there are prerequisites, one being to surrender fully to death. But are people willing to die unto themselves?

I won't write more because the fire gets strong and I'll over energise Wink but just wanted to say thanks - great insights delivered in a way that's gentle.

I

Trinity's picture

Richard, this is fabulous!
I love your sharing and how you offer this perspective in such a clear way.
Amy! I didn't realise you'd come from the corporate world. You've done amazing things to unfold a path much more resonant with your soul.

Richard W's picture

Hi Open, Amy and Katie. Thanks for all your lovely responses!

Amy - haha, thanks for all the love. I feel it. Thank you for sharing your experience with loss of identity. It really can strike at any time can't it. For me, that's all that dying really is - a loss of identity. That's why it's so hard when someone experiences something like what you've shared. It's literally a death. Much love sister Andromeda!

Katie - Thanks for your words - great to 'read' you too! Wink Your observations ring true. As you said it's understandable because of the pain felt from the initial loss of identity. I guess what I'm describing here is the dark night of the soul. That period between losing identity and becoming the fullness of non-identity. At the moment, I am trying to reach people who are already in this process and looking for help. Otherwise, it's difficult to build up the motivation, particular with so much fear. But, I'm trying to also get the message across that embracing death makes life so much richer. It's a tricky balance. Thanks for your insights.

Richard W's picture

By the way, for anyone who's interested. This article is a small preview of a book I'm writing at the moment about coping with change and loss of identity.

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Thanks Trinity! Much appreciated.

Fiona Reilly's picture

Hi Richard,

Thank you for a brilliant article, it's awesome - full of gems!

I felt to share this song written about the death of Charles Darwin's daughter - "We are all leaving" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDjfGEcRL7Y

With love,

Fiona

Hi Richard, it's great to hear that you are sharing this aspect of the journey, it's of real importance. Too much is shed on the lighter side but it's in these 'dark' phases where the real work begins. It's very sacred. The Christian Mystics have some very stirring books written around true dark nights. It's like the unplugging - nomans land phase, takes courage. Sending love X

Richard W's picture

Hi Fiona,

Thanks for the share. Although the one you posted is actually called 'Follow the Heron' -which by the way is a beautiful song.

I love Karine Polwart, though I hadn't heard either of these. Here's a link to 'we are all leaving' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22PP3Lnm6y4

Love,
Rich

auntyangel's picture

Great article Rich and perfect timing.
In a very recent dark night of the soul, under attack with thoughts and feelings of mortality the light came on only when I remembered my earliest memory - the fall from unity into separation. It was accompanied by deep sadness yet, many years later separation now so obscures that reality. I am blessed to have that memory. Now I enliven it with attention - the eye of a needle beyond the filter of separation.
Your words put what was not really into though for me into full view.
Much Love

Richard W's picture

Wow Jane, thanks for sharing your own experiences with this dark night. How amazing to have that memory - what a gift and yet I'm sure quite painful too.

Much love

divinespark's picture

Hi Richard,

So many beautiful nuggets in your article. Thank you. It stimulates me to feel more deeply into the paradox of Pure Presence as being both everything and nothing. Beyond all judgment. All attachment. All identity.

I frequently hear people say, "God is Love. I am Love." If one attaches to love, how can one be present in the midst of hate without judging it? If we attach to any identity, how can we truly be One with All That Is?

Pondering the mystery and magic of the divine as being present in all things, yet not being any of those things, helps to dissipate the fear of diving into that black hole of nothingness. Contemplating that the divine is in both the love between the child and the mother, and in the hate between the father and the son, expands the love in my heart to no end, understanding love as an expression of the One.

The only way to be One with everything is to be nothing because the moment we identify with something, we separate ourselves from everything. Mind blowing to feel into this. Ah, the wondrous grace of Pure Presence, both everything and nothing.

x Cathy

Richard W's picture

Hi Cathy,

Love your words as always - you always have so much to bring to the table. You said "The only way to be One with everything is to be nothing because the moment we identify with something, we separate ourselves from everything. Mind blowing to feel into this"

Yes indeed, it's really all about identity. If we can move beyond identity, then death no longer touches us as there's no longer anything to lose - just a continuous flow of unique consciousness. I won't pretend that I've got all this completely sorted myself yet - still identifying with certain aspects. But, the more identity is transcended, the clearer pure presence becomes. Mind blowing indeed!

x