Hi S,

No you are not alone! I've experienced similar in the past and it wouldn't surprise me if everyone did.

To me you've hit on a very important state that we tend to go through when consciousness is beginning to expand and we are stepping onto the 'spiritual' path.

There are two truths that we can experience in any one moment - absolute and relative. The absolute is the everything/nothing to be experienced in and through all things. Relative truth is that phenominal experience that we are having in this illusionary universe right now.

We are each embarked on a journey through the relative universe to discover the absolute (whether we know it or not). When we first encounter the experience of the absolute, it tends to be something that the mind cannot grasp because it has no frame of reference for nothing - the absence of all experience. It wants to create something around it that it can understand - 'day-dreaming' for example.

In my experience, one of two things tends to happen when a person tastes the absolute. Either there is fear of it, or a curious acceptance - an 'okayness' with it. The fear arises because the ego (the personality) senses loss of control ultimately leading to its own demise (even though it is only our internal identification with the personality that is dying). When we taste the 'okayness' this can expand into an awesome state of liberation.

What the ego struggles with is the idea that 'right action' can just happen from the nothingness inside ourselves without us having to plan and control. It feels like jumping off a cliff edge - the trouble is, we don't realise we can fly!

When the absolute is tasted the first few times and once we have overcome the initial fear, then we begin to surrender to the inevitable pull into that state.

The taste of absoluteness can arise at any time. It often tends to be when we just relax and let go - like when you drink a glass of wine, walk in the countryside or lie on the beach for example. It can also arise when we feel overloaded externally - like when there is there is too much noise hence your experience of switching off and moving into a kind of disconnected dreamlike state.

The key to enlightened states is to carry this experience with you at all times whilst still fully engaged in what is going on around you. However, you cannot seek this state, it has to arise naturally within you. What you can do however, is facilitate its arising by noticing when it arises and being fully present in it.

By the very fact that you are noticing this state, even though you may not be able to fully understand and explain it, means that you are already embarked consciously on the path towards it. The more you surrender to your destined pathway as guided by your heart, the more you will encounter the state.

What tends to happen next is that we experience the state more and more until there is internal recognition of it. Once this happens, there then follows the realisation that there is nothing else worth having but this taste of absoluteness.

Our pathway will cause us to have encounters on a day to day basis that first allow us to surrender into the absolute and then temp us out of it until ultimately we can be enlightened in all things - even as the no.9 bus runs us over!

"To know the truth is to know the self.
to know the self is to know what the self is not.
To be at one with what the self is and is not...
in every moment,
is to be enlightened by all things.
Then there is no trace of enlightenment,
although enlightenment flows through our daily lives
endlessly."
Openhand

So keep on dreaming!

Chris

You are definitely not alone. I only speak from my perspective.

Doing anything that doesn't come from the heart is too taxing for me, so I generally don't bother with things unless they are inspired from the heart.

I find it virtually impossible to engage in conversation for the sake of it and I relish the opportunity to be in an enviroment free from distracting 'space filling' chatter.

I would say that it sounds as if you are being selective and tuning out of frequencies that are not serving your purpose. We exist throughout multiple overlapping dimensions, and it may be that you are vibrationally tuned to a fequency that differs from the generally consciousness around you.

Of course, there may be times when you are simply away with the fairies...

Love
Trin

Hi Guys

thanks so much for your thoughts above. Wow - how exciting! As it turns out this is something I've been doing for such a long time, but only more recently (in the last few years) have I actually noticed it.

What you both have said makes sense. It does quite often feel like nothingness. I'm not sad or happy when it happens, I just am. I never realised it could mean something so special as this. Now you've put into words what I've been feeling, I can really appreciate the moment when it comes. Thanks!

And if the fairies happen to be there too - I'll say hello to them for you

What would be really interesting is to see if anyone else has experienced anything like this too? How does it feel when it happens to you? Do you just associate it with day dreaming or does it feel like something more?

Relax. In this "time out", you are detached from the babel of the modern world, and living free in your own mind. It's your time to do nothing, and just be. Life should not be an incessant round of activity, like a perpetual treadmill.

The psyche sometimes needs time to process the important issues in one's life: giving it the space it needs to digest these seems sensible: the consequences of not doing so will accumulate, with an outcome which may not be as fortunate.

If you really feel a need to make the time out more "useful", then just use it to seek deeper and deeper in yourself and unconditionally accept what you find there without judging.

Peace!