There’s something I’m experiencing that I would appreciate your insight on.
A couple of nights ago I had a very intense dream. In the dream I received a box at my door step and before I even picked it up I could feel that it was of very dark energy. The box was open and as I glanced down into it , it seemed to contain tools, manipulative tools, I could see some letters and other things (which I recognised in the dream but not now) that all felt deeply manipulative. I could sense the energy that had sent the box and it was depraved and vulnerable and desperately trying to manipulate to feed itself. It felt like it had come from a hollow darkness (that felt debauched and sick)– I could see a form and it was hiding out and looked vulnerable but clever in its desperation. I thought to throw away the box but realised that it may get sent back to me because my name was on it, or someone else may pick it up. So I decided to take it back to the sender, I found the residence and was convulsing as I took the box and left it at the door. I then woke up shaking and covered in sweat and pretty freaked out. The thing is since the dream, I can feel this energy lurking around me, and at times right in my face. I’m not fearing it now, but when it grabs my attention I feel a strike of dizzying sickness - a real yuck feeling, today I saw how this energy has experienced a complete lack of love. The paradox is that even though I see and feel it as part of the ‘self’ the ‘me’ doesn’t know what to do with it. I have experienced entities before and they leave once I don’t give them attention, but I’m a bit confused by this because it’s deeply dark and just there hanging out in my field, strangely it’s not affecting me too much though - but I’m not sure what this wants from me....I’m realising this is a never ending journey ;-)
Thank you for reading, much love Katie