A prayer of the soul
Meditation is an accepted tool within spirituality for catalysing our spiritual evolution. It seems prayer is becoming less and less favoured. So is there still a place for prayer on the spiritual journey and if so, what kind? Speaking as a non-religious person, I can say that frequently, I experience a deep upwelling from my soul about a situation or event. I find that by expressing those arising feelings within a meditative, interconnected state, then I can feel my meditative prayer having an organising impact on the field around me. It feels like a powerful way of bringing into being the Right Action of the universe...
Prayer as non-acceptance
For me there is much negative association with the whole idea of prayer and I dare say that goes for many visitors to the Openhand site and the wider spiritual community in general. In the past of course and still today, people pray in churches for all kinds of things: to be spared our suffering perhaps, to spare the suffering of loved ones, or maybe that "God" will change our immediate circumstances to something more favourable. It's really just ego resistant desire...
- "Desire is a judgment of the moment,
saying 'I judge that outcome is better than this one'.
It is caused by fear and ignorance,
not trusting what the universe is unfolding.
It is like applying the hand brake to a moving car,
it leads to fate rather than destiny.
Desire requires effort...
enlightenment requires lack of all effort."
Of course, this kind of prayer would be totally against the Openhand approach of complete acceptance and at-one-ment with the universe. We see that everything happens of a reason: to invite greater self realisation and that suffering is an attachment to a desired outcome or over identification with a particular experience. Even pain is just an experience, and we can move beyond associated suffering by bringing our focus deep into it and knowing ourselves as the inviolable, eternal presence which is beyond all suffering.
A place for authentic prayer - personal sharing
Having said that, I still find there is a place in my life for prayer, although when it happened for me the first time, I didn't immediately recognise it as such. It felt like an unstoppable uprising from my soul. I remember the day I left my thirteen year marriage...
- "I knew my marriage had come to an end. I was living in the spare room so that at least I might still be close to the kids. But in all honesty, it really wasn't working. Following my awakening, my wife and I discovered we were now simply very different people - poles apart. My heart yearned for freedom.
Then synchonistically, a flat appeared on the farm where I worked which seemed absolutely perfect. It was out in the countryside in a quiet secluded location, right next to an orchard with birds singing their sweet soul music. The flat was number 3 - the 'trinity' always seemed to do it for me!
I immediately applied to the landlord only to discover I'd been 'beaten to it'. Someone else had seen it and wanted it first. But that didn't feel right somehow. I got the sense that it was meant for me. You get that feeling sometimes don't you? When something is destined to be?
So I went into my heart and asked the universe. I could feel a deep upwelling, almost as if I was asking for it. But then something stopped me. It didn't feel right to yearn for something over the interests of someone else. So I found myself instead saying to the universe... "If the flat is meant to be for me, if it is in my higher interests and that of all life, then let it be so. But if the other guy is meant to have it, then I surrender to that too. Let Right Action come into fruition". It felt really wonderful that I was expressing my true feelings, but honouring the path of the other person too. It felt congruent, empowering and at the same time, satisfyingly surrendered.
Three days later (I just love that number three!), one Saturday morning, my ex-wife and I had a 'bust up'. I wasn't fulfilling her expectations of how to entertain the kids. In a fit of temper, she told me to "get out of the house within a week". I was not unduly concerned, but at the same time, it meant I would have to get myself fairly quickly into gear. Once more, I opened my heart to the universe and felt an upwelling for a resolution to my situation.
Three hours later, that same Saturday morning, I got a phone call from the farm owner... "You know that flat you were interested in? Well the other guy has just been posted with his company up north. He can't now take it. Would you like it instead?" It was absolute manna from heaven! Later that same day, three hours in fact, I moved happily into my new abode."
Expressing our authentic, creative feelings
So to me now, this is the true meaning of prayer. It's all about noticing our true inner feelings, looking carefully beyond potential desires, and connecting with what is meant to be. We simply feel it as an upwelling.
But when we do feel it, neither am I speaking of sitting placidly by, letting anything take shape. I'm speaking of expressing that upwelling, giving voice and wings to the energy and calling for the Right Action of the universe. In so doing, if we are truly aligned with the natural flow, we unleash an unstoppable force, which will in some way, come into fruition. The unfathomable organising energy of the universe has been invoked...
- "In each moment, seek to read what the energy of the universe
is inviting you to do...
then harmonise every thought, feeling and deed around that truth
expelling all doubt and disbelief in the tremendous organising capability of the universe.
In so doing, 'Right Action' becomes 'Right Outcome'.
Soulful prayer: an unstoppable force
To me then, this is now the true meaning of prayer. It's not about 'cosmic ordering' anything we want, it's about being a powerful open channel for the naturally divine creative flow. So if you have an authentic upwelling from the soul about some event or circumstance in your life, you might like to give this 'prayer' soulful expression and unleash unstoppable organsing energy into your life...
- "If it is in my higher interests
and the higher interests of all life,
then let it be so"
Let it take shape with meaning, commitment and sense of purpose. Then it's simply the case of recognising the way the energy is flowing and riding the wave. May the force be with you!