Hi Chris thank you for the amazing weekend we shared together. It was a truly beautiful experience that left me feeling energised and so full of love for everyone and everything I felt myself smililin from the inside out. My journery home on the train could not of been better, the sun was slowly setting in the sky and its beauty was totaly captivating, and somehow more amazing than usual. The grass seemed greener, animals more majestic everything more amplified. I was looking forward to witnessing whatever was to unfold for me, not expecting a particular outcome. I did feel very tired and slept a lot, then I developed a cold and found myself sneezing and sneezing, this lasted a couple of days, and I found myself feeling quite heavy at this time too. My cold cleared up and then the lightness returned, and I could sense some emotion building up within me, then today I have found myself crying and crying, I have tried to ask my higher self what these tears represent, I have no answer yet.

I wonder if you could shed any light please

Love & best wishes
Tonia

Hi Tonia,

Thanks so much for your kind words about the course - it was truly wonderful having you along.

Your experiences make perfect sense. Do you remember the Ice Berg metaphor I drew on the white board? I mentioned that the bodymind is like the part of the Iceberg that is below the water and stores up negative energy, conditioning and mental programming that we've been bombarded with all our lives.

When we 'pour in' higher consciousness in the way that we did on the course, what tends to happen is all the negative energy begins to release and flow 'up and outwards'. Its typical that people get colds because we begin first to clear the physical body of toxins - the physical body relates directly of course to the first or base chakra.

The second chakra relates directly to the emotional body so as we begin to clear the energy here its classic that people feel tearful - crying tends to release all the pent up emotional issues that we've bottled up throughout our life times.

So in actual fact this is all very good news indeed! It means the
meditation is working. In due course both chakras will clear and you'll feel better, lighter and more energetic.

So keep on going!

Lots of love

Chris

Thanks for your help and support love and blessings - your feedback has really helped.

Tonia

Hi Chris

What a truly gorgeous day it is today, I sat in the garden with the dogs and cats eating my breakfast, surrounded by birdsong! I am blessed to live in a lovely hamlet with trees and nature all around me and a day like today is what it is all about.

Thank you for a wonderful experience - everything is moving as you said it would, I feel intensely aware, and the confidence in my beliefs that being with you all has given me is tremendous. After feeling rather alone for many years even though through reading various books etc I knew like minds were out there, meeting up with you all has been a very cathartic experience.

That feeling of cleansing has stayed with me and the energy is both speed of light and in a sense out of time slooooowwwww!

I would definitely love to come on the second level.....

love and best wishes

Denise x

hi everyone!

lovely to read your posts. thank you so much for helping to make the weekend really special for me, I felt blessed to be sharing it with such a lovely group of people, I was especially touched by everyone’s compassion and mutual respect, thanks for helping me feel so safe xx

and chris,

a massive thank you for the weekend, it was way, way beyond my expectations. i felt my heart open and questions i have had for so long, answered in the most beautiful and understandable ways.

the last exercise in particular took me to a whole new level of feeling of why i choose to return to be incarnated on to what i can find a difficult and painful place, earth.

also your compassion, gentleness and patience particularly in the face of my skepticism was truly inspiring.

after I left I visited my family and it was a most amazing visit for me, I felt I could hold my space with love and compassion, yet enter fully into the moment and be lizzie, a daughter, sister, girl, woman, whatever the moment required but with glimpses of the underlying awareness of my soul's divinity and the divinity of those around me. I have had moments of full awareness when alone, fully in the moment, and feeling at one, at peace, really beautiful. I was also aware of my ego/personality taking over often! racing with ideas or judgements, especially in company. but I was able to step out of it without berating myself for not being 'spiritually' perfect!!

but since I have been experiencing a lot of fear and often been unable to recall the wonderful feelings I describe above, instead mostly feeling ordinary, scared, not right in my own skin-me again! doubt and skepticism. "it's the wrong path, it's false, it won't last, you're just scratching the surface, you're kidding yourself" etc etc. usual stuff, the same old record playing.

although I am also aware of and feeling profound shifts/shifting ‘beneath the surface’ if that makes any sense! sometimes these can feel unsettling too. and i am experiencing feelings of intense joy and awareness as well. a roller coaster!

sometimes the fear is so overwhelming i feel like i can't hold it, i don't know what to choose, I don’t know what the higher choice is or how to stop identifying with it. i don't want to run away (well sometimes I do but I know there’s nowhere left to go!!) but i don't know how to face it!

a lot is around financial insecurity and supporting myself.

i'm also afraid of losing/having lost that feeling of safety, magic and at-one-ment and heart-centred expansion.

and fear around making the ‘wrong’ decisions, big or small.

and someimes there's no 'story' to the fear until i make one!

is it just something i have to go through? is wanting to feel at one just going to push it away? what do i do with the fear and the doubt?? How can I trust my soul will provide? any thoughts would be great x

and thank you again for sharing your gifts

lizzie x

Hi Lizzie,

Thanks so much for your post and wonderfully kind words

The fact that you got so much from the course is in large part down to your commitment and courage in looking within past the blockages that hold us.

Its absolutely typical that when we look within we draw in light and higher consciousness (both the same thing really!). In so doing we illuminate all those dark inner areas of lower vibration - a spotlight is thrown on our fears.

But the only way out is through - denial is not just a river in Egypt! If we are to continually experience the expansion, joy and liberation of the true self, then we must confront those places which limit and constrain us - we must go into and dissolve our fears by becoming awesomely okay with all arising circumstances.

Synchronistically your question about fear came at just the time I was feeling compelled to write about it. So here are my thoughts in this article...Fear - the doorway to heaven

I hope it might help.

Love and best wishes

Chris

Hi everyone,

Thanks for your posting on fear Chris. It is soo helpful to have reassurance that the fear I am experiencing is part of the process. Usually as soon as I feel even the first twinge of fear I immediately assume I’ve done something wrong and feel even more afraid. I can use your reassurance to arrest the panic and negativity I usually slip into when fear arises.

To describe fear as a doorway to heaven is simply beautiful and is giving me the courage to face not hide, repress or resist any fears as they arise. And without resistance I am better able to remain open and trusting.

The other thing that particularly resonates, is for me to remember that I chose the circumstances that led to the fear, because at some point I and most likely others decided we need certain events in order to proceed in our evolution.

I am finding this way of looking at previously frustrating or ‘negative’ aspects of my life and circumstances intensely liberating. I have too often played victim, despite the discomfort of this position, becoming locked in self-pity, self-hate and depression. But recently and particularly since attending ‘unfolding into the light’ something is shifting and I am being given the encouragement and information (from many quarters) to step out of victimhood and embrace ALL aspects of my life, right now, not at some perfectly realised point in the future! Even the uncomfortable, scary and unfamiliar.

‘Turn toward everything’
Trunga Rinpoche

Thank you for your encouragement

love lizzie x

Hey Lizzie,

Thanks for the wonderful Trunga Rinpoche quote "Turn towards everything". Amazing isn't it how everything changes in life when we change our perception and approach to dealing with fear.

It reminds me of a little story from the time I took up Karate in my early teens. I was taught by five physically and energetically imposing Black-Belts. Their philosophy was very simple: the harder you train the easier it becomes. The senior instructor Neil was a huge guy "as big as a barn door" (as my dear Dad would say), very powerful and totally unforgiving in sparring. The fact that he'd lost several front teeth in previous combat made him even more scary! I always used to dread Kumite (free sparring) just in case I ended up being paired with one of the Black-belts and especially of course Neil - as we faced one another, I'm sure the whole Dojo (studio) could hear my knees knocking!

I loved Karate because it brought me deep into bodily awareness and raised my Ki (energy) tremendously. However the fear kept spoiling my enjoyment and I knew I had to find some kind of solution. As always, when we really need something, the Universe delivers. At around about this time (the mid 1970s), a new TV program started called "Kung Fu". It was a wonderful series about a young American orphan trained in the art of Zen by Shaolin priests. I remember one particular episode where the young boy Kaine (also affectionately know as "Grasshopper" by his master) is taught the meaning of fear and most importantly to always confront his fear. We often show the clip on our course "Way of the Heart" where we do several experiential exercises in overcoming fear so I won't share the whole story - suffice it to say, I was deeply impressed by the particular line from the Shaolin master...

"life is but a corridor and death merely a doorway. Face your your fears because all fear is an illusion. In time you will learn to fear only fear itself"

As simple as it may sound, as an impressionable teenager I was deeply influenced by it. From that moment I resolved to always face my fears head on whenever and wherever they arose. The following evening at our Monday night training session would be my first test.

Sure enough, right at the end, we were given to do Kumite and it would begin by each of us choosing a partner. I distinctly remember feeling a strong urge pulling me towards the senior instructor and this time I surrendered to it. As we stood facing one another, a curious calm descended upon me (my knees stopped knocking) and instead of just backing off and defending as I normally would, I found myself moving forwards.

The result was a wonderful and profound experience. I seemed to have much more time to bob and weave, move in and out. I was looser, more flexible, balanced and relaxed. I found I could respond much faster to what came my way. The Kumite became kind of like a dance as we flowed forwards and backwards attuning to the natural harmony of the moment. The risk of injury was still ever-present and yet my fear of it had faded far into the background. This was what I came to know as "walking down the blade edge of life" and there is nothing quite like it.

So from that moment I learned the merit of always confronting fear head-on. Whenever it arises not to procrastinate for a second and this approach has served me well. Each time I've been called on to face my fears, there's always been something wonderful and expansive on the other side of the doorway. I would recommend it to anyone!

Love and best wishes

Chris