So does this mean you're soaring now Trin? Have you unfolded your mighty wings?

Are you given to share?

Chris

Thank you for asking The above quote expressed strongly of a personal emergence that I have experienced lately. To be honest, words still defy me... here goes:

Not so long ago I began to receive a stream of past life memories. Some I would relive, some I would have a gentle remembrance of. All seemed to be related to past life karma. Many were beyond anything I could have imagined, especially those relating to the horrendous atrocities inflicted upon sentient beings.

At times it has felt as if I have dredged up the raging fires of hell in order to let go of the burdens that I have carried forth through the aeons. I have found the past months particularly challenging in this respect as I have recalled lifetimes from before the world we now know existed and experienced first hand the pain and suffering through countless lifetimes since. It helped me make sense of many ‘choices’ I’d made during this lifetime, as well as understanding why I needed to continually recreate circumstances in order to let go of that which I had not yet done.... as we all do, whether we realise it or not.

I’ve also been confronted with my ‘shadow identity’ yet again. Although on a much finer, almost undetectable level than previously, whereby even the tiniest distortion or misalignment to flow of divine consciousness will not go undetected. I have received such unrest and suffering at the slightest possibility of being even marginally out of focus to the flow of universal consciousness.

As challenging as it may be I have come to learn that I must go to the heart of the storm to find my way though. There is a place of calm and peace at the very core of all pain and suffering. It is this place that I have learned is unreachable unless we are willing to face the raging storms of our own journey and go through it no matter how dreadful that may seem. It is this place that is the only thing that makes sense to me. It is a place of pure unadulterated beingness.

During all of this, at one stage, I recall feeling the ‘raging fires of hell' close in, wrapping their fiery wrath around me like a molten prison’. Not even the faintest crack of light could find its way through. Did I try to deny the experience? No! Did I try to find a way out? No. Something made me go into the heart of it. It was hell! Yet, I knew if I didn’t ‘face my demons’ (so to speak), and look them square in the eye with unconditional love I would simply push them back down and they would stay there until I was ready to release them, in which case life would simply be burdened with their constant uveiling anyway.

Then...

Something miraculous happened!

It was as if the brilliant white sun broke through. The clouds cleared whilst turning from black to pure white. The sun filled the air with brilliant white light. I felt the light of divine consciousness pour from my heart once more as it reunited in divine union with the soul of all things. I saw white angelic doves everywhere, breathing life force back into my lifeless body as I lay upon their blanket of white feathers. I emerged once again and felt exactly like a dove who unfolded his mighty white wings and soared into the white heavens.

In Love and Light
Trinity

Hi Trin

Thanks for sharing that with us. You write so beautifully, it's a joy to read your posts. Like you, my past life memories come in either gentle remembering that I can watch from the outside almost, or full on "in there" experiences which leave traumatic emotions to deal with for days or weeks afterwards.
However, although inter-connected, I associate the shadow identity as a slightly different situation to past lives, am I wrong here? With the shadow, how long were you in the "raging fires" for? Was this something that happened in one meditation or something you had to live with while trying to get on with life as a mother, wife etc ?

With Love
Michelle xxx

Hi Michelle,

I've been off line for a few days (as has Chris), so please excuse my delayed response.

It seems like an eternity has passed since I wrote the above The challenging experiences weren't happening during a meditation, and yes, I did have to carry on with life to a large degree. The only way is through and often the most powerful lessons are learnt in our everyday situations (certainly the case for me).

I agree, the 'shadow' and 'past lives' are two separate issues (whilst they may be inter-related).

Sending Love
Trin

Hi Guys,

I noticed your chat here about past lives and shadow identities and thought you wouldn't mind me adding a few thoughts...

To me they are different but interrelated. A Shadow Identity is held within our consciousness and forms when a fragment of our soul gets stuck. Specifically it gets stuck within our causal body caused by our karma. So if we had a particularly traumatic past life experience then the soul may have become attached to the event - traumatised by it so to speak. So a particular fragment breaks away and an identity forms around that.

This Shadow will build neural webs within the brain containing holograms of imagery, thought and feelings. Now every time that something happens in this lifetime to spark off those behaviours (specific feelings, thoughts or words etc), then we're likely to be influenced by this past life karma and it will dictate the choices we make in life.

The way forwards is through recognition of what's actually going on and then by continually centering in surrendered openness - we let the karma together with all the negative experiences wash through us without resisting it. Over time, the Shadow dissolves and the fragment of soul reintegrates with the whole.

That's it in a nutshell - this subject is covered extensively in "Gateways of Light: Our Journey of Ascension" under Gateway 4. To find out more... click here

Chris

Trin thanks for that. Sometimes when so much shifts in a moment it can be hard to pinpoint, and when in the middle of the collage of change, it's difficult to know the next piece, even when it's presented to you. It seems to me there are times when we only see it after the event.

Chris, thanks for the nutshell. Pretty much the same nutshell I had, so it's nice to know I'm getting something right!

With Love
Michelle x