I had some interesting (to me) reflections yesterday on my life, that went something like this...

I was thinking about how there are certain things in my life that I am not at peace with, and how there are certain repeating patterns. And I began to see myself as a character in a story / in a book, and that the story was playing out a certain way - that it had the sense of an inevitable trajectory, and that the trajectory did not look good (to me). Whatever I do to try and change that story, the plotline seems to continue in the same direction!

So who is the author of the story? Can I get in touch with the author? And how can I persuade the author to change the plot towards a more favourable trajectory (as I perceive it)?

I realised that there is an author, that the author is 'the divine mind'. Part of me also knows that I am the divine mind (that's the BIG 'I' - my higher Self). So if I (big I) am the author, I can change the plot for small I.

So I took the place of the author and reflected on the possibility of changing the plot... But as the author, I felt that the plot had its own inner logic and trajectory - that the characters in the plot had their own momentum, their own destiny, and that I was not particularly inclined to change where that plot was heading for any of them. As the author watching his characters, there is a certain interest, certain pleasure, simply in seeing how the story unfolds.

Switching back to the position of 'character' again, I realised that I can also have that pleasure in watching how my own story unfolds, however it unfolds. In other words I can let go of my attachment to my story. And as I let go of my story (a bit), its hold on me lets go (a bit).

Back again to the place of author. I sense that there is an immense power there that I could, if I chose, tap into. On the other hand, it doesn't necessarily feel like a power that should be used. The author seems happy to observe for now