Hi Chris and Trinity,
First of all, I would like to say thanks you for all you are doing, it makes me happy to see people like you be on this way and trying to enlighten others.
I also want to say that I've listen to your new documentary 5Gateways like one week ago and it is clearly one of the best documentary I have ever listen to... and believe me, I listen to a lot of them
So now, what about me... Since forever I have always been open mind and open about all the stuff that is going on around us, I was curious and had a lot of question about the universe, but at that time, I was not very "researching"... it was most about feelings. I feel about 2012 since I was a kid, and I've always find it funny to see how the things has been going on years after years until now.
I really started to research and listen to a lot of stuff like 3-4 years ago and my awakening really started at this point, as I was learning more and more about the reality we are living in and was just confirming all the things I was feeling since my childhood.
In my awakening process, I end up learning about our real self, and how everything is about our connection to the spirit world, and how we can touch all this with changing our perceptions of things.
It's been some time now since I'm working on myself, trying to become a better person overall, trying to feel more the things around me, to listen to the flow... and to let the flow go by itself.
I started to see the difference around me to some degree, for example, I noticed a lot more synchronicity in my life without even looking for it. One of my friend is currently living the same process as me. As we try to help each other in this, we talk a lot about all these things happening.
I also started recently to seriously read about chakras and meditation, because since I see the process I'm into, I realize this is pretty much the next step in my awakening.
Here is my problem, even when I seem to understand what are the chakras and how they are connected to our day to day experience, I don't seem to sense or feel them. I think I might be a little bit unbalanced around my heart chakra, since I have a hard time really FEEL the love associate with it. I mean, I am happy in my life right now, I really am since I live the awakening process.. I do take more time to live, and to live for me, appreciate the little things. I smile to people and try to help when the opportunity present itself, but I don't feel the "love" as the word means to me. Of course it makes me happy and seeing people smile to me when I do something positive in a situation where they would expect me to react in a total different way, it feels great... but is that it?
I'm just trying to see where is the problem, since I don't feel my chakras at all, and I'm pretty sure my firsts ones are Ok right now, I haven't feel that good, relax and balance in my life before.
In the same idea, I have a hard time meditating, ok, I'm really starting with it, but the few time I have start feeling energy around me while I was meditating, it was so overwhelming that I started focusing on this too much and then lose it all... and usually I end up ending my meditation not long after because I can't get there again. But this energy I'm talking about, I didn't feel I was connecting it with my chakras... It's hard to explain.
I have to say that when I meditate, I will do it lying on the back, because I have a hard time sitting the back straight for a long time. Is that ok?
Anyway, this is my story, and at the point where I am, I would really take some guidance and advice because I feel lost a little bit in the process.
I would like so much to be able to join one of your course, but I'm from Quebec and in a position where it would be very hard for me to do it. I've look a lot around where I live for place who do this kind of things and it's not something that I see a lot around here... So I have to work it out by myself.
Again, thanks for everything and thanks for taking the time to read what I have to say.
I wish you a day of love and peace, for both of you, Chris and Trinity!
PS: Like I said, I'm from Quebec, so sorry if my English is not perfect, it is not my first language!