If you're looking for spiritual mastery - if that's what you know your soul is working toward - then don't think your life needs to be some 'spiritual hunky dory'. Don't consider everything must run smoothly - especially in your relationships - because it won't always. The sand is there for the oyster to polish the pearl. So don't be afraid if your life grinds you a bit. If you can feel the light beginning to shine through the density, by working through it, then it's all okay, you're on the right path.