Feeling like a part of me is missing... There is a deep aching like a giant hole in the center of my chest. I know I am missing something... My mind says it's that I lack an essential quality, that I am flawed and not ever going to transcend my karma. This feels very much like truth getting caught in a distorted mental pattern and I feel beyond that stream of thoughts. I stay with the feeling... Though acknowledge the pattern. Synchronistically I spent too much time in the sun and burnt my entire chest....had to coat it with some sticky aloe and it reminded me of the icky sensation of being a child and having goo spread all over my chest to have EKGs done for a physical hole in my heart. Dreams have been disturbing... I am in a house and I am feeling energy in the house and I am moving at super speed through the rooms in the house.... Not walking, just arriving. There is a room that terrifies me that I burst from in fear because I feel and see the presence of two young girls who resemble me but are children... And they are dead and I am hyperventilating in their presence... Waking in a very strange energetic space... Fuzzy and heavy and not quite awake or fully in my body. Is this what I am missing? Aspects of the inner child to be integrated? Or something else?