Fiona Sharing...

For the past couple of weeks I have been feeling to start a thread to share some of my journey and explorations. I'm not sure what may unfold, yet it feels good to take a risk and open the space...

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Thanks for the inspiring reminder that we need to accept our distortions as they are before we can release them. Lovely to read about how you were able to let go of relationship ties.


I'm enjoying reading your shares. I learn so much from everyone here. Thanks for the reminder to soften. I am not always present to this. I'm happy the phrase "I know nothing" resonates with you. It helps me to feel into a space of openness and acceptance of what is and where the flow wants to go. Wishing you well on your journey.

xxx Catherine

That's a great dream Cynthia, thanks for sharing.

Padma, lovely to hear from you, thank you for sharing. Ahhh, the continual process of softening, nice to have you mirror to me.

Go well, Fiona

Beautiful sharing Fionna & Catherine.... After reading Fionna's sharing Something in me softened.. and Catherine how wonderful to say " I know nothing" for unwiring the conditioned patterns and be comfortable with it. Thank you for all your beautiful sharings..

That's a great reminder for all of us Fiona - thank you for sharing. It reminds me of a dream I had in which I was being chased. No matter where I hid 'they' found me and the chase got harder every time. By the end they were chasing me with 2 x 4's with huge long nails in them and I realized that there was no place to go. I gave up, stopped and faced them. They dissolved. You've reminded me of that and of the importance of simply being with whatever is.
I'm grateful - thank Fiona - this is very timely for me.


Yesterday, I had a beautiful reminder of the importance of acceptance in all aspects of life and whatever we are experiencing.

I was working with releasing some attachment and relationship ties that no longer serve me. As I worked with it I could see the ties attached to me, a deep root was going into my chest and heart area. I knew that it wasn't possible to pull it out and cutting it didn't seem like the way to go. Then I remembered the importance of accepting that it was there, as I did this and felt into it, almost immediately the connection and thick root began to dissolve all by itself.

Hurrah for acceptance *good*

Hi Cynthia, Catherine, Open and all,

Interesting what you say about "peace of mind" Cynthia, it is not a phrase I use much these days and so I'm not sure why I used it here. I do recall deliberating before I wrote it. I agree that there is more than peace of mind relevant here and perhaps "peace of being" would be a better phrase. I suggest that our beingness can be at peace even when our mind is restless and our heart is suffering.

Thanks for sharing your inspiring experience Catherine and as you say "There is nothing to achieve and no place to get to in Absolute Presence." and yes it can be hard!!! Thanks Open for the reminder to look deep into the pain. By going deep into the pain, we can find the freedom beyond it. The only way out is through, and yes, I say it again, it can be hard.

With peaceful blessings, Fiona

This is great Catherine - it's a fundamental part of the Openhand Way and how we get into the facilitation approach....

Behind every negative thought, is some subconscious pain. The Facilitators learn to watch for words that 'spike' in the field when a client says them. We then play them back and get people to feel into them. Very quickly you can get people into layers of pain which they're carrying. This is how true healing really happens. We'll be getting into this next week in Path between Worlds.

Till then


Hi Fiona and Cynthia,

After I read your comments, I felt to share this with you. I recently completed three sessions of a Body/Mind/Spirit workshop with Garth, my shamanic healer/chiropractor. During the last session, we focused on observing the thoughts and feelings without judgment, just allowing them to come and go. The day prior to the last session, my neck and upper back seized up in pain. During the workshop, I was able to identify the conditioned habit pattern behind the physical symptoms: an unconscious 'fight or flight' posture that I've carried in my upper body from childhood in this lifetime and in many other lifetimes, me thinks. I observed myself as I went into my fear, recalling incidents from my childhood -- recognizing that I needed to feel safe and that this need created my experiences of feeling unsafe. Garth encouraged me to breathe my spirit light body through my neck and upper back contractions and expand the light in all directions. The tension began to unwind as I surrendered and let go. The pain lessened. I relaxed and felt peace in my heart. Then I observed myself wanting to feel more peaceful. I attached to getting THERE and said out loud, "I feel peaceful," to hasten the process. My body wasn't fooled by my 'thoughts create reality' strategy, as Garth pointed out, and it tightened its grip on my 'fight or flight' DNA programming. At that point I observed myself saying in so many words, "I failed." Garth suggested that I wasn't accepting that it might take time to re-wire all that circuitry in my body formed over eons of time. I agreed and felt comforted by this. So I just learned, once again, that feeling peaceful is not always as easy as it might seem. With Garth's encouragement, I left the workshop repeating and feeling, "I know nothing." Because that's what it's going to take to release my conditioning. Unity of Body/Mind/Spirit. Becoming as nothing in it all, the inviolable One, so that I don't need any situations to go away, as Open and Trinity would say. The One needs nothing at all. There is nothing to achieve and no place to get to in Absolute Presence. On to more practice. Hot damn! This is hard. I'm struggling to learn not to struggle. Life, aye!!

xxx Catherine

After a bit of reflection, I realized that for me it is the heart that suffers and the heart that requires peace. Then I feel focused, centered, deep, strong and free. Of course, I do use the term 'peace of mind', but am thinking I might like to let that saying go....

"When the really courageous thing to do, would be to maintain focus, centredness and peace of mind."
A very timely posting - thank you.

Last night I went to a story telling event for a better nation here in Scotland.

One aspect of a story particularly resonated, when the unlikely hero was waiting for the monster to awaken, it was said that he needed to have the courage to find and maintain his peace within.

This struck me as very powerful as so often in challenging situations we/I become distracted or full of fear when the really courageous thing to do, would be to maintain focus, centredness and peace of mind.

Thanks Catherine and Trinity,

Yes, the Beyond is truly divine and it only becomes an escape if we become attached to it and try to grasp for it and then how can we ever get there? I love your line Trinity -
"When we can let go with every cell of your being the whole world falls away and beyond happens."

Indeed Catherine, it is a daily practice, one I certainly haven't mastered yet, though can see how I have progressed somewhat over time.

Much love and gratitude, Fiona

I agree, Trinity. Fiona's post "Beyond" is truly divine. I've experienced the intellectual "false love and light" bubble where one denies and represses and "fakes" it, which is very different, indeed, from releasing and transcending distortions and going beyond the beyond. One can be in the storm and above and beyond it at the same time! I don't always get there, but I keep practicing day by day. xxx Catherine

How often I have shared and expressed only to gain deeper insights afterwards. I think of these as Wham! flashes of illumination, the light shining through the darkness. I love your quote on being calm amidst the storms of life, Fiona, and appreciate your comments about communicating honestly, Cynthia. Very inspiring all around. Thank you, wonderful ladies. xxx Catherine

Yes! It's so powerful to share as it puts extra weight behind what we think, feel and then express, and often helps things to become clearer or provides new insights.

Fiona, it's wonderful when we catch ourselves - but if we don't express in the first place we won't see those subtle little 'slips'. There is, for me, nothing more attractive and appealing than honesty. It really is the best policy.
Awesome noticing....


After posting "Beyond..." above, I realized (again!), that this life is not about escaping to a void, the place beyond. Rather it is about finding ways in which I can integrate, what Openhand might call the 5th dimensional experience, into my everyday life as I engage with the physicality and challenges of this world. I can simultaneously be grounded in the physical yet experiencing the "Beyond" - how divine. 0:)

I am reminded of the following quote
"Peace, it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart." (unkonwn)

With peaceful blessings, Fiona

Beyond time and space
Beyond location and movement
There is a place
Of everything and nothing
The place from hence I came
And to which I long to return
When I go there
My breathe deepens
My body softens
My head forgets
My heart melts

This morning I danced
I moved my feet, arms and spine, though I am not my body
I felt my sadness, grief and joy, though these are not who I am
I felt my body ache and it's pain, again this is not me
Beneath all this I felt a deep expanse of nothingness
This is who I am and everything "I am" arises from and through this place
Thank you for the dance

Thanks Catherine!

I'm misquoting Trinity here, but she once shared something like this that touched me very deeply.

"How can I best serve the world? - By being true to me"

I can see the article she wrote in my mind's eye, though wasn't able to locate it on the website just now. Thanks Trin, it has stayed with me!

Much love, Fiona

HI Fiona,

Like many people -- and especially women -- I had strong conditioning around "disappearing" to please others. I'm chipping away at this density day by day. Thanks for the reminder that standing in one's truth and power is ultimately an act of great kindness, although it may not always be perceived that way. While walking along the beach yesterday, I came across a basset hound who was standing her ground so perfectly, woofing away, her head held high. It's time to dig my feet more deeply into the sand, I thought, and "woof woof" away. x Catherine

Yes, indeed Catherine. And not only is it gestures of kindness that touch, energize and encourage, also other authentic expressions of beingness and times when we stand in our truth and power! Thanks for the returning rose *good*

Love, Fiona

What a lovely reminder, Fiona, about the silver threads we leave behind just like our snail friends. I'm often deeply touched, energized, and encouraged by the smallest acts of kindness and compassion although the givers may not be aware of this. It feels uplifting, indeed, to reflect on how we might magically influence others by the smallest gestures of kindness. (f) x Catherine

Hi Catherine,

Yep, often feels like snail's pace here too, one step at a time, sometimes even what appears like the occasional step backwards. Though even with the slip back there is something experienced and learned.

I love the idea that the snail leaves a trail behind it and it reminds me that we often have no idea of the impact we have just by being who we are and following our path, the little things that we do that leave a silver thread, like an authentic word or smile may have a magical influence that we remain unaware of.

Love, Fiona

Hi Fiona,

Your reflections on our messenger friends, the snails, resonate strongly with me and are so timely and reassuring as I continue to practice the day-to-day self-realization process, making progress bit by bit. I'm feeling like I'm at a snail's pace these days and that's okay. Thank you! x Catherine

I just read soften - and indeed, as Trinity has noted, softening, melting takes place.
What a gift you are.
Thank you.

How awesome! Snails have always felt very elemental/geological to me, and I always feel a deep connection to the earth when I connect with snails.

Thank you for this Fiona :)


Hi there,

Over the past couple of days I've been receiving powerful synchronistic messages from a most unlikely power animal - the snail!

It speaks to me of a number of things
~ Snail carries it's home on it's back and so is at home wherever it is - home is where the heart is.
~ The snail leaves a trail behind him, so too in life how we are and how we move through the world has an impact, sometimes as we are moving forward or the impact is energetic and unseen and we may remain unaware of how we have influenced the whole. This highlights for me the importance of aligning with the flow, expressing authentically and trusting.
~ The snail signifies new beginnings and is one of the first animals to emerge in the Spring. In particular at this time it affirms for me a transition from the shadows into the light.
~ Snail makes slow but steady pace. It may appear to be making little progress, yet can cover much ground. It speaks to me of presence, focus and persistence.
~ The shell also represents the ancient spiral symbol - more growth and new beginnings.

I'm grateful to snail for playing so magically with me these past couple of days :)

Love, Fiona

Meet my edge and soften
Soften enough to let go and to be
Soften enough so when the time comes
I can take a step forward
To meet a new edge and soften into that place.