I have been having mystical experiences since my mid 20s and am now 34. Early on during this journey, I came across The Five Gateways film and book, and have been using these tools to help me evolve further.
In 2015, I went through a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. After going through the activation part, I was attacked by the police and forced to go through what felt like a fake or set up sectioning, and ended up in hospital for 6 days. I left, and moved back home and have been here ever since.
Last year, I felt like I was going deeper and deeper into Gateway 4, and felt amazing for a couple of months. Shortly after this, I ended up having a shamanic (psychotic) episode. I had imagined that I was the star of a covert reality TV show and ended up in hospital for six weeks. I am now medicated on Olanzapine, which I am not happy about. I was told that if I didn't take medication, then I wouldn't be allowed to see my son. There were similarities between the Kundalini awakening and the psychotic episode, so now I'm left questioning whether I did have a Kundalini awakening or whether it was actually a psychotic episode too. I have been questioning whether all the mystical experiences from my life were actually manic episodes. I feel confused at the moment, so I'd love to get some input from people on this.