In reply to by Lisa in Wonderland

Lisa, it is very inspiring how you have challenged and are challenging yourself with the dry fast like this. There may not be 'noticeable' layers peeling away, though I would say that many qualities of soul are coming through and embodied like - I imagine - determination, resolve, willfulness, surrender etc. To me, these soul qualities are not only the 'result', if you like, of breaking through density, they also 'come to hold oneself' when karmic/dense layers arise. Therefore, embodying these during a dry fast for example is very valuable. Also, very often, I have discovered that, there will be subtler layers arising before big layers emerge and frequent meditation and  'just being' as you said - I will add consciously - during a fast will catalyse this.

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All those years ago , when my parents were alive , I had moved to a new area on my own and felt alone and 'depressed' and started to cry and then I thought if I cry I will feel even worse , so I decided not to cry anymore and now I can't cry . That's one of the reasons why I am trying these dry fasts.

When my father died I was 8 years old and I didn't cry. I didn't cry for many years. Everybody around me as a child - mother, brother - would cry, so it felt like I 'should' be the strong one in the family and there and then I repressed a lot, so as to protect myself from the pain and to also 'protect' the family. A hardening happens, like walls around the pain and I have found that the opening and the breaking down of walls happens in waves - some are subtle and some are big waves... life will create the conditions for the walls to break down ...

I used to 'push myself' if you like by combining intense meditation retreats alone with intermittent fasting (one very small meal per day). 'Feeling alone' and 'depressed', well I am very well acquainted with these guests in my consciousness. One day in meditation at home - that was a few years ago... though the waves still come but subtler or/and deeper - I was feeling alone and sad and I just sat with it for 3 hours! Totally surrendered to 'it', crying happened while staying with the physicality of the experience. At the same time, whenever a conditioned thought/belief arose in my mind I would just 'see' it and feel the effect of it in my physicality and energy. I was witnessing and feeling at the same time. 'Feeling alone and sad' lifted and I found myself laughing and feeling bright.  So, a big wave came to shore to dissolve itself...

On a slightly different note, Next week Im doing a 24 hour dry fast, as promised. Would you like to synchronise?? What day are you dry fasting? May be we can do it together? Would love the support :)

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