Dear Open, 

I am having a very interesting experience in the 3D now that I am back ' home' after the profound experiences in South Africa. It's hard to describe but I feel like I'm in a dream. It's strange because I like to think I am very well grounded and I'm sure there is nothing very different noticeable on the outside. On the inside though my motivation for participating in my usual pursuits seems to have completely vanished. 

It's very sudden and strange, as if I am seeing through the illusion and yet am not entirely removed from it. Attachments to important people and circumstances seem to have just dropped.I don't know what to do with myself,like I have peeled a layer off and don't know who this new person is. 

The only place I feel purposeful at all is my little farm. Pulling out the vegetables from the Earth, washing them, preparing soups and salads and stir fry, that's all that seems to comfort me right now. In my meditation practice I feel like I experience waves of goose bumps. 

Am I doing something wrong? I am continuing to do intermittent fasting and am eating very light organic food.