Hi Aspasia

Thank you for your insightful reply. Yes, I agree that somatic experiencing is very useful. I found a shamanic psychotherapist a few years ago and we did some very useful releasing journeys this way. It takes a lot of courage to revisit the feelings and emotions this way. But it has been worth it. I've also been doing shadow work that's been great with working with deep shame, anger etc.

The 'mental health condition' has been my most useful tool for self-discovery. I wouldn't change it if I had that choice. Thank you for the video sharing, I shall look forward to watching it.

I really like that in indigenous shamanic communities people who have these experiences are mentored through it, by those who have gone before them. 

I am sure something will come. 

It has been encouraging to hear your words. Thank you.