Nowadays i do openhand bow and sit in meditation with some flute music playing in the background and i can feel the joy and connection as a daily experience. I find openhand bow meditation as very powerful to deal with tightness. Otherwise i just with it and sometimes it dissolves and sometimes not.  I experience a perfectionism issue with my meditation. Its a box type belief that if i drop out of my peaceful state then i have made a mistake and now i need to reconnect again. Thus approaching meditation with an intention in mind. And whatever i do out of this state is not worthful enough. It feels like a strong conditioning i picked up somewhere down the line which i cant trace back to at the moment.