In reply to by Open

I’ve wrestled with intention vs non-intention and doing vs non-doing within the context of meditation for a good while, and finally realized today what meditation works best for me - an open-ended, curious approach to noticing whatever’s going on in my field of awareness, actively scanning for tension, and connecting with whatever comes up and allowing it to unwind simply by feeling into it and staying with it. I say simply although it was anything but simple at the very beginning, and it’s still not easy now. The hardest part is going directly into my tension and then staying there long enough to not need to leave.  Suddenly real magic happens all by itself and I’m just in awe.

The awesome part is my physical body doesn’t feel like such a prison anymore.  It inherently carries plenty of tension just by the everyday friction of 3D experience, so it’s not like it’s hard to find something to feel into. Even if I don’t know where to start, the physical tension will often lead me into deeper and deeper layers.  It’s like having my own personal treasure map that leads me to my unconscious blind spots. What a gift!

And for me at least, meditation feels a lot more like “doing” than what I’d read and thought about it. I’d always assumed meditation was about a passive “allowing” that resulted in higher and higher exalted states of consciousness through gradual repetition of breathing techniques and sitting in stillness over long periods of time. Prior to that, I’d try to personally will my mind and body into being still.

Now I view it as a gifted opportunity to catalyze my own realignment, and also the field around me by natural extent -  I might have massive releases and realizations, or I might make no “progress” at all, but I know I can never lose by bringing awareness to my own imbalances, so I’m building trust no matter what!

Of course it took me years of sitting there twice a day for a set time judging myself for sucking at it - to realize that sucking at it is already half the battle won. :) And to realize that the Openhand approach describes all of this in a much better framework already!