It was around 5pm, Friday evening, at my new home in Glastonbury. It was the end of January 2006, and the rent was due promptly on Monday morning. The trouble was, we didn’t have a bean to bless ourselves with, let alone the mountainous £700 cost of the rent. I’m sure you can empathise: even if you’ve not been there, it’s one of those classic situations that can make the Sapiens in you squirm, in this world of deadlines and debt. What could we do? I had to rediscover what walking the spiritual path truly meant: how a heart-felt pull can guide you, moment by moment, and just what authentic manifestation is really all about. To do it, I’d need to call on the Christ Consciousness and, who knows, maybe even JC himself!

Most people in society are so closed down, so inwardly suppressed, that tightness to the world’s broken promises, dreams and expectations gets inwardly compacted, like layers of silt at the bottom of a meandering stream. But when we let the light in, it stirs up the sediment, and reclaims the lost nuggets of soul gold, that have long been buried there. Each internal confrontation will come with a degree of challenge and pain, as the sediment activates and washes away. But the reintegration of those lost aspects of you, becomes totally sublime. I’m sure you’ve been there: waves of relief, remembrance and joy, remind you of that home-coming feeling; a familiar, accepting and totally natural sense of you. I ask you...what could be better?

As I’d discovered earlier on the path, in order to truly experience this as a way of life, a threshold has to be crossed - there has to be complete surrender to the divine. And for this to happen, a fundamental realisation has to be made). It is not one we can simply make with the mind. We may get a whisp of what ‘walking the spiritual path’ means beforehand. But to truly ‘get it’, we have to dive headlong into the raging torrent of life, with abandon, so that it literally takes your breath away.

As I sat wondering how to pay the rent, I was remembering this fundamental realisation: that whatever objectives, desires, ambitions or dreams we may have in the outer world, these are merely the effects of internal configurations of consciousness; they are merely mirrors to our inner self. If we spend our lives trying purposefully to shape the external world, according to some mind-led agenda, then the expectation will always fall short of the Universe’s authentic purpose for us. Or, worse still, our e orting might pull in the unwanted attention of Opposing Consciousness. A close connection with the Team a confirmed it for me...

There is but one purpose to every moment. Irrespective of what temporary objective you may be utterly engrossed in, there is always one underlying reason: everything is connected by threads of consciousness, One Self, seeking to experience itself through every soul. Each is a piece of a universal mosaic, and every moment configures perfectly around the purpose of self-realisation. Creation is there to reveal an aspect of truth, about yourself, to yourself. And there is absolutely nothing else going on. Ever!

As this remembrance settled once more, it turned the life into which I had incarnated, literally on its head, so I could shake out any remaining cobwebs. It meant I could approach each moment in a new way. There was no longer winning or losing. There was no right or wrong. ‘Black’ and ‘white’ had merged into the grey areas of life - the blind spots - for which I now had to take responsibility. Abandoning the inner inquiry of the moment, to a system of ideas, beliefs and blindfolded conditioning, would no longer suffice.

It was time, once more, to own the awesome sovereignty of the constant conscious choice.

This creative creature in the heart of all people, is what I’ve come to respect, admire and cherish as the “Christ Consciousness” - our own personal Messiah. It can light the grey areas of our inner world, illuminating the choices that need to be made. It is to move beyond judgment, for judgment only ever ties us to the old reality, just as outward-projected-blame only ever holds us down. By the Law of Attraction, we’ve drawn to ourselves every facet of our lives - the good, the bad and the ugly. is is so we can keep making those judgments, until we realise they no longer serve. And the only way to move through, is to accept the life we create.

The outer drama, no matter how challenging, we manifested because of our own inner darkness. So we must look into the mirror, observe ourselves honestly in the cold light of day, then figure out what judgement of life might have created the current experience we’re having.

And I’d say: we also need to expand our understanding of what ‘judgment’ really means. It’s not just about blaming or adversely criticising someone else. It’s also when we hold some kind of limiting opinion about life itself. It’s an internally fixed relationship to reality, around which we inadvertently create attached dramas - eddy currents of the Original Mistakes previously shared. So for example: “I’ve got an old injury in my neck which is an incredible pain (the Pain of Existence). If I exercise, it’s just going to make it worse, so I’d better not.” And so the injury is semi-permanently cemented in our consciousness, and therefore limits our experience by a fixed opinion of it. It’s just another example of an unconscious blind spot forming.

As I was carefully lowering myself into incarnation, I was experiencing both the joy and the pain, knowing I had to allow myself to experience the full depth of feeling: the immense joy of interconnectivity, but then feeling the suffering of another, as if it is your own. The sweet and the sour, often come hand in hand. By giving yourself intimately into every experience, without forming some limiting opinion of it, then you can feel more not less. You’re never restricted from life’s fullness.

When we can accept both the pleasure and the pain, without ownership or rejection, that’s when we’re beginning to taste the real juice of life. It’s another key signal that we’re evolving from Sapiens to Divinicus, and activation of the Christ Consciousness helps us do it.

The Christ Consciousness ignites in the heart when we can be totally accepting of the moment. And synchronistically, at this point, I started encountering people following the Christian path. It soon illuminated for me the perverse paradox of the Christian religion:

“I am the way, the truth and the light, no one comes to the father but through me.”

I cannot believe, for one moment, that any being as evolved as Jesus - one truly carrying the Christ Consciousness - would have said that. For in itself, it is a gross judgment, not only of the path, which has thus been rendered as a singular way, but of anyone else not walking a Christian path. Which, in itself, is just not, well, Christian!

I pondered if somehow it was a mistranslation? And then a synchronous ‘chance’ encounter, yielded another interpretation:

‘I am’ IS the way to the truth and the light. No one comes to the father but through the ‘I am’.

Now this I found interesting, because it would bring Christianity right into line with Buddhism, for example (and no doubt countless other religions and spiritual practices). What it surely means is to look into the outer world and embrace the ‘I am’ within it - ‘I am that which I have created.’ It is only by such acceptance of reality, that you can slowly but surely, bit by bit, lose the sense of separation from all; lose the judgment that creates the small ‘I’. us we drop into the Void of non-identification, the place of in nite potential - the sense of presence that is the ‘father’ of all authentic experience. It was clear to me, that non-judgment must be the only way to become the ‘father’ - to truly become the One.

Neither does non-judgment mean the wishy washy acceptance of ‘anything goes’. It has to be so much more than an intellectual idea of letting go. I came to observe, frequently in spiritual circles, that some groups advocate ‘dropping the hot coals’ - but before they ever truly allowed themselves to feel the heat of the moment. So you become that which is attached to non-attachment. It’s like a fail-safe trip switch has been installed internally: “Oh that feels hot, that’s uncomfortable, better drop those hot coals instantly, so everything feels cool again.” I’d realised through my own previous ‘mistakes’, that this is not the way to true non-attachment. It leads, instead, to a life of denial.

I recall my very first firewalk: I’d been directed to focus intently on the far side and walk purposefully across the glowing red coals; I’d heard in other practices, you focus the mind on something like wet moss, for this is about mind over matter. What a disappointment! All that emotive, soul-stirring build up, and it was over in a ash - I hardly felt a thing. I resolved the time would be different:

the jembe so ened me deeply into the rhythm of the moment, my body gently rocking, a dance that guided me slowly out into the middle of the coals. Breath drew the intense heat of the re-deva up into my body, cleansing and burning away that which didn’t belong. And there, right in the middle of those burning red jewels, as I worked to transcend any inner retraction, a young shaman came to me from a reservation in Taos, New Mexico. I’d witnessed him earlier that year, performing a Native American corn dance. A bond had formed between us: “nothing to fear brother, dance with me and drink in the juice of life!”

This is what the so called ‘non-dualists’ out there are missing.

It’s another ‘mistake’ - a misunderstanding of the eastern teachings - which I started to encounter quite frequently. e Void of the Absolute - and the divine experience that flows from it - can only be experienced by so opening into the full flavour of the moment. ere can only ever be an experience at all, if there is relativity - there still has to be the sense of ‘this’ and ‘that’. So what I o en see going on, is a quasi-denial of the relativity, and in so doing, dropping into an isolated bubble of non-attachment: of intellectual Enlightenment.

It’s dropping the hot-coals just as soon as there’s a prickle of heat. us, they don’t truly feel the soul and the magical path of light that unfolds from it. You can only do this when you keep dropping truly into the Void of emptiness – of in nite potential. And since the Void is to be found in and through all things, you can only experience it by surrendering completely into all experience:

you have to feel, not just the early prickle, but the blazing heat of the moment so that you become totally one with it.

Then you simply fall into the Void, through the heat, and authentic experience arises from it. All of this was quickly falling back into my awareness, as my own resurrection unfolded. I knew it was the Christ Consciousness - the Messiah within - that can help unravel attachment, and align us with the natural ow - through this ‘crucifixion’ of life’s materiality.

And so it was, as I’d eased myself back into the ery heat of life, it le me one Friday evening at my new home in Glastonbury, unable to pay the rent: now see how easily you get owned by those beads of sweat, as they trickle down your forehead! Yes I could feel the inner contraction, that earlier down the path, would have been experienced as fear and flapping. But now, instead, I knew to feel the vestiges of fear and so enter into it, to feel through it. And if I truly did this, I’d open into the Void of in nite potential again; whereupon, something would arise – an expression of authentic beingness - that would light the way.

What I came to experience, time and again, is that if I surrendered to this natural directional impulse of life, then the Universe would always provide me a ‘vehicle’ through which to express (I’m using ‘vehicle’ here, in the widest possible sense of the word). There will always be some event, circumstance or experience, that would enable you to express an aspect of truth about yourself. What’s more, such authentically aligned expression would always be resourced by the Universe in some way. ere would always be the fuel for it. I think Paulo Coelho, in his wonderful book ‘The Alchemist’, phrased it:

“when you follow your heart, the Universe works for you”.

Based on countless experiences, I totally concur.

So I was sitting at the kitchen table, feeling the last vestiges of fear and using breath to help soften into it... “follow the thread of consciousness and the Universe will always nd you a vehicle through which to express.” Bingo! Why not sell my car? It was a bit of a button pusher: in this realm of density, a car, after all, does provide a sense of freedom...“freedom is a feeling you have inside.” Yes indeed! Of course I know that. So I let go of the physical need for freedom, upon which, I found myself expanding blissfully inside...

You see, this is the point: what’s going on in every moment of life, is a co-creative flow, that at a higher level, you’ve already subscribed to. And the purpose is what? Yes... “to reveal an aspect of truth about yourself to yourself.” So you’ve already subscribed to a higher learning vehicle, with others; which is some kind of abstract contemplation of the nature of reality. Within the new Divinicus design, there will be a flow of this energy, that interacts with your etheric bodily vehicles, to shape the external reality around you. In fact, Divinicus or not, you already are shaping your reality, just with the blockages and resistant eddy currents built in. As you are inside, so you manifest into the outer world.

This particular ‘vehicle’ of higher realisation, was the exploration of divine trust: of non-judgmental discernment; and also, the true nature of resource. This last one, for me, was particularly poignant. Often we may think we have no money to do ‘this’ or ‘that’, and yet we still own resources. As I steadily transitioned from my old life filled with material possessions, the stuff I didn’t need was traded for ‘energy’ that I did. The Team a confirmed it for me:

if you own something, then you have resources, you have energy, which can be ‘transmuted’ into some other form.

In this case, I needed money!

So I decided to sell the car. I say ‘decide’, but a choice didn’t need to be made. It simply became obvious:

committing to the path of self realisation means the choices simply make themselves. A path of light unfolds before you.

So the question landed, “how best shall I sell the car?” As I’d already encountered in this dense place, the mind wants to answer such questions quickly. As Sapiens, we’ve been conditioned in society to having to produce some instant answer. Being wishy washy is not something that gets rewarded in the matrix!

As with many people, the bodymind I came into, has a powerful, logical, and very active lower mind - it can be quite a slippery snake, frequently wanting to own the show. So my abstract higher contemplation, about the nature of resource, trusting the flow, and manifesting a ‘vehicle’ of expression, instantly became: “Let’s sell the car on the internet, where millions will see it.” is was the logical thing to do. It would offer the best opportunity of selling the car quickly, recognising that the rent was due in only three days.

First though, was the unglamorous side: I needed to wash the car, which nevertheless, I did with enthusiasm (after all, I was in the ow, the divine was creating with me). Next, was taking the photograph. Angling the lens and playing with the settings, the perfect shot presented itself, except just at that moment, a dark cloud passed overhead. I’d have to wait and try again. As the sky cleared, and I clicked the shot once more, once again, I was thwarted: the batteries ran out! Now normally in society, we don’t read any deeper significance to the flow of such events. The Sapiens in us would simply head o to the nearest store, where there are bound to be more batteries; especially in a world which has been configured purposefully for instant consumeristic gratification. I came to realise:

this is what Sapiens is designed for - it’s what he’s meant to do.

However, resisting any temptation to close down and accept some lower-life compromise, I could feel instead, the clearly recognisable, higher educational pattern of deeper significance beginning to kick in. I wasn’t supposed to photograph the car. The synchronicity was obvious, even if the reason and next possibility were not. How did that feel? Together with a degree of nervousness, it simply felt right. So I asked the question: “What would you have me do now?” And the feeling was unequivocal - I should get in the car and drive.

Again, Divinicus always has to watch for when the mind of Sapiens wants to take the driving wheel and own the ride. Remember: trust is the key to this healing process. So I’m driving down the road, and my mind is already guring out what it thinks I’m supposed to be doing next: “Yes, you’re meant to be going to your usual parking place, that’s obviously the direction in which you’re heading.” I’m sure you recognise this in yourself, at least sometimes - the mind adding two and two but getting five. Except this time, unusually, there was nothing free at my usual parking place... “That’s strange," I found myself thinking. Deeper significance was surely at play.

Once again, I needed to open the internal space, around which the lower mind always wants to contract with some overriding and premature solution. When we do this, the spontaneous knowing of higher mind can effortlessly kick back in...

It has to be effortless, otherwise like so , open petals at dusk time, it simply closes down.

This simple ‘knowing’ guided me to take the next left. Driving up an incline, a car pulled out in front of me, making a sudden u-turn in the middle of the road. My attention was drawn to the number plate, with JC as the last two letters. There was a very clear feeling to follow the car. I laughed to myself... “If JC wants to help me sell my car, well then I’m open!” Despite the joke, I was clearly receiving a powerful remembrance of the Christ Consciousness, and how to work with it:

how to keep opening into the heart; holding back the contractions of lower mind; and feeling one’s divine destiny.

So I followed JC back down the road, next right, past my house and then le into Glastonbury High Street. The heart-felt pull was unequivocal. And as I’m driving down the High Street, suddenly a car pulls out with its hazard lights blinking. It swerved between me and JC. Somehow, I just knew the parking space it vacated was for me. So without hesitation I pulled in. “What next” I thought?... “Easy. Park up, and put a price on it.”

It certainly wasn’t the solution lower mind was comfortable with. After all, this was Glastonbury High Street: a small town, where most people have not too much money, and you don’t sell cars e ortlessly in just a couple of days. Still, the guidance was unequivocal, and yet again, I found the will to hold back the instant assumptions and conclusions of the Sapiens mind. I found some paper, a pencil, and wrote down my phone number, together with the price of £700 – what I’d paid for the car a year earlier, and synchronistically what I now needed for the rent. I simply knew I was in the flow - these ‘coincidences’ don’t happen by chance. Now, feeling optimistic, I stuck the ‘For Sale’ sign in the windscreen and walked back home.

I didn’t have to wait long for a response. The very next morning, around 9am, I got a phone call... “I’ve seen your car for sale. Can I come over and chat about it?” “Sure! Come right over, we’re at No.9 just around the corner.” A few minutes later, a knock at the door announced his arrival. As the door swung open and our eyes connected, it was one of those ‘aha’ moments, like déjà vu. Each of us was able to look with total transparency, past the eyes, and deep into the soul. It was self evident: we had encountered each other in a past life. There was that unmistakable, deep sense of heart-felt connection. I could hear the pennies dropping, even as we began to speak...

It’s never about selling cars or any other kind of outcome. It’s always about how are you being now? What’s your highest expression of beingness? How easily might your soul be sold, because you’re focussed on some expected or needed outcome?

So an intense dialogue ensued for the next two hours. Many deep revelations and sharings took place. It was clearly one of those ‘sacred contracts’ that people speak of in spiritual circles: a destined exchange, designed to help each to unfurl something important. For me, it was all about watching subtle eagerness for lower mind to own the show; an ever-so-slight contracting down, believing that all parts of the puzzle had landed before they truly had. I was able to engage, but so en into this exposed contraction - a subtle one that I could clearly feel inside (It’s these blind spots that allow in the Intervention of Opposing Consciousness in some way. In this case: over-energising the logic function of the Sapiens mind).

Then, just as that constriction had unwound itself, the conversation came to an abrupt and synchronistic halt (as if I needed the reminder that the inner shapes the outer perfectly). We looked at each other for just a moment, which seemed to expand to eternity. Two souls had formed a mutually supporting feedback loop, that carried us experientially all the way back to the Source. Then suddenly, and in harmony, we both expressed together: “What about the car!” We laughed at the merry dance the divine had taken us upon.

What happened next was priceless. Precious. A sheer blessing. He reached inside his jacket, pulled out an envelope and slapped £700 down on the kitchen table... “I’ll take the car,” he confidently announced.“But don’t you want to test drive it and check it out?” I inquired. “No need, I trust you.” Amazing. Awesome. Tears welled up. Of course: we’d connected across time, travelled through life and death experiences together. The car had been a vehicle for our reconnection and deeper integration. It seemed right that we exchange. There was no need to deliberate. We could both simply feel it. ‘This is divine manifestation at its purest,’ I thought. ‘Why can’t it always be like this?’...

‘It can. As long as you keep lower mind open long enough, for the soul to flow through, to generate its mutually creative feedback loops, then miracles like this will simply happen all the time. Try and stop them!’

As the guy was leaving with the keys and registration document, I had one nal question: “What caused you to see the car in the first place?” I was fascinated at the heavenly play of the divine.“Oh yes, I was camping at a site the other side of the Tor. I’m feeling to live in Glastonbury. Your car was parked right outside the first estate agent I came to - And, I also needed a car!” When two or more people are reading from such a ‘divine script’ – the natural ordering flow – then you get poetry in motion.

It was an experience I would never forget, one that would carry me well, along the winding road ahead. Not to mention, I could now pay the rent!

So it was the inquisitive interplay of the Divinicus higher mind, that had facilitated this (almost) incredible sequence of events; followed by an activation of the ‘Christ Consciousness’, as a heart- felt pull. This often comes with the unravelling of any kind of fixed opinion about the moment, any kind of contraction, and too early focussing by the untrusting Sapiens mind.

What has this to do with the spiritual craze of ‘envisioning’, ‘intentioning’ and ‘manifesting’ the things you want?...

Zip. Zero. Zilch. Nada. Nothing! Yes, you may create something that way, because all is consciousness and connected by focussing threads; but it’ll be an illusionary construct, a false reality, that’ll surely leave you floundering in some side-tracked eddy current.

Of course, it’s ultimately fear-based – not trusting in the natural flow of life. I wonder, what could be better than the kind of miraculous flow I’ve described in my story? What do you feel when everything is guided for you and clicks magically into place like this? For me, there’s simply nothing to compare. It’s priceless:

as if the whole Universe is coming into alignment, just for you.

Surely this is the true meaning of abundance? And all you really have to do, is open your heart and let it ow in.

To me, this was the real lesson of Jesus, who I believe embodied the Christ Consciousness admirably. Throughout his life, he demonstrated the utmost importance of making the higher choice, at whatever personal cost. Even to his crucifixion, Jesus wore his heart on his sleeve, saying...

‘This is the way to divinity. is is the way to Divinicus.’

I thanked him profusely for his re-acquaintance in this dense physical plane. In the journey that was drawing me ever deeper, the Messiah within, would prove utterly essential, in many a tight spot to follow.

 

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