Hi Treebrother,  

It feels like you are doing the best you can staying conscious of your lifestyle.  I know it is not easy but there is no one to blame here.  We are only responsible of what we are conscious of.  For me, It is a balancing act when it comes to consumption.  Does it serve for me to stand in the middle of the store, over analyzing whether i should buy that packaged golden tasty kiwi and being lost in the process?  What matters is awareness and action flows from it. It is a big one me and i am still working on it.  There is so much more to say on the subject. The bright side of it that it kicks of internal processes, tightness and even karma to work through!

Wishing you Well!

Anatoly