Hi Alex - it's great that you share your fears here. I'm sure many have had similar.

You said...

I know where this comes from in my past, but having that knowledge doesn’t always stop the fear.

That's right. Because the fear will have impacted at a biochemical level - forming fixed neural pathways and emotional conditioning that infuses the bodily cells with the chemical response to the fear. That's why there has to be a 'feeling in' approach - basically confronting the situations that cause the reactions. Then to surrender into them with acceptance and trust - this is how they can then unwind over time.

Wishing you well with that

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