Dear Open ,


That actually makes sense . When my very old soul daughter was to be born ,I read all the books and did all the yoga and prepped myself for a vaginal birth . However at the last moment my uterus went into spasm and my daughter also seemed to get afraid . Her heartbeat dropped and I experienced birth with a tube in my mouth and under general anesthesia . It took me a long time to get over the guilt and shame of not doing this 'properly' . Now that I look back that fits in nicely with me blacking out as memories of traumatic births previously flooded my system . 

Thank you for your insights