Dear Open ( and all my Madwomen ❤️)

After the rage ,I am feeling the sorrow. I am just discovering how much of the fixed way I was behaving in my relationships was a way of avoiding the childhood abandonment wound. It's a difficult ,heart rending place to be .I am sitting up since 2 am listening to this beautiful song trying to initiate a dialogue with this abandoned vulnerable tender part of me .  And I am seeing how I have projected the blame of being abandoned onto my partner when all the while I had been doing it to myself ........Jumped out at me that did.