Hi Open,

Good question... To be honest, one-way flights tend to be a lot more expensive than return flights, so somehow at the time some months ago it seemed to make sense to book a return flight back to the Netherlands (thinking I could always still change it or not use the return), but then how to pick the return date? I opted for Christmas at the time, my mind is now trying to fill in all the reasons why I opted for that, but I am honestly not exactly sure. Christmas doesn't have a meaning to my soul, but perhaps it still does to some extent to my ego?

Oh and I resonated with what you wrote in the post before: 'The mind is constantly grasping for something to hang onto, something to give it meaning and purpose.' There is definitely grasping, fear and impatience, probably stopping the emergence of authentic creation, which can be very frustrating to be aware off!