In reply to by Open

Yes! Getting better at it, even with the old self-deprication tape playing and making me feel bad for letting myself get frustrated and triggered. But not giving up/in and self inquiry are shedding light on the source of these low self esteem moments, and I'm seeing small shifts. I'm not letting myself get me down. And more and more I'm seeing how it's vital to keep the body clean at this point; anytime my energy is low from processing crap, I find it much harder to stay in the light. Really getting to feel the difference in energies. I may catch up yet!