Thank you for bringing this article up Open. With the holiday season well upon us, I have been feeling some doubt as to whether I can be in it and not get caught up in it all...the shopping, the eating, the drinking...all of it. It feels like there is this giant societal permission to just give in to it all because "it's that time of year". We are hosting a little Christas Eve Party with my kids and the grandparents tonight - simple but still it all begins. I know someone will bring the wine and it feels so easy to just slide into the expected place.

I received some great support yesterday through a song by an old band called Journey. This song popped up on my kids radio channel yesterday and again in a random movie they chose to watch last night. Here are some of the lyrics:

"Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'"

ok, so the lyrics are kinda cheesy =), but for me it spoke to what I was feeling and reminded me how cheap and easy it can be to get the quick fix - the false sense of joy and inner fulfillment. It was a reminder to stay present, to stay in the feeling, to stay connected to my inner most sense of who I am and find the joy and fulfillment there.

With love,
Jen