In reply to by Open

hi open, thank you so very much for your encouragement and caring. I've just purchased your first book and  realize I could have saved time and just gone straight to that lol! I also realize my response was that of a child throwing a tantrum "but why can't I go on a trip?!?" etc. etc. well I'm seeing now it's cause I never bothered to fill my tank up with gas, so to speak. I just haven't been doing the work. so with gratitude I dive into the wisdom, and begin.