I soooo know that feeling and empathise greatly.
It can seem a lonely road and it can seem that way for a heck of a long time. Some fortitude is required, and maybe some recognition of what the benefits are may help.
I found spending time in nature (maybe just sitting and hearing the birds sing, or watching the stars (if you can see them where you live?) And my favourite, a candlelit bath listening to angelic music. Finding gentleness and beauty to tune into to nurture oneself is really important as you find your way through some awkward situations and maybe some raw emotions.
This member of your tribe is sending you heartfelt love, *give_rose*
Lesley