I totally empathise with you Apollonius.

I believe such 'struggle' happens to those on the difficult path - the one of MOST resistance. These souls are the pathfinders and catalysts. It's challenging - you have to confront and breakdown - with your very consciousness. I find it's like being a gearbox - you have to somehow bridge the power of your engine, into a tough road of twists and turns, brows and dips. It's definitely different from the majority who are simply ascending - making their way out.

But you're definitely not alone!

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