In reply to by Open

Thank you Open. It seems a tricky thing to feel the program reality, and not condemn it. What an epic challenge it seems to accept that I am not separate from any of it. Ironically, the distancing from it only seems to strengthen the identification with it and blow it up in living color all around.   

Still processing a lot of this...appreciate the support!!

Anastasia - thank you for your post! I would like to respond to you...tomorrow when I am more rested. <3

With love,

Jen