In reply to by StarHawk

Hi Alex. I have attended OPEN HAND retreat. SINCE 2015 WHAT HAS CHANGED?

.......I sometimes wonder, if I'm honest, whether the 5 Gateways sequence will be the one I experience, or whether my spiritual path will take me on another route. I sense that "trying too hard" to follow the 5 Gateways model might be counter-productive for me - seeking a particular outcome, when the Universe might have a different way for my soul to evolve & self-realise. That last part was a bit difficult for me to admit & to share on this forum.....

......There may be hidden karmic or other reasons for my apparent slow progress, & I don't mean to say that to excuse myself from anything.....

TRIGGERS can take YOU to the source of your pain and help you understand where they come from.

why did it take you 3 days to calm down? what are YOU REALLY angry about?

but for me it's slow progress - one step at a time - baby steps.

because you use the example of a car - did anything happen to you involving a car?

internal self-regulating mechanism that will only allow me to experience a certain level of pain at a given moment in a given situation.

THE ANSWERS TO YOUR SOURCE PAIN WILL BE FOUND IN YOUR EARLY YEARS.

read ''WHY LOVE MATTERS' HOW AFFECTION SHAPES A BABY'BRAIN BY SUE GERHARDT

THE PATTERNS PRESENTED WILL REPEAT THEMSELVES IN ADULTHOOD AND HINDER GROWTH INTO MATURITY...JUST OPENED THE BOOK ON CHAPTER 5...HOW EARLY EXPERIENCES CAN ALTER BRAIN CHEMISTRY, LEADING TO ADULT DEPRESSION.

YOU WILL NEED TO DIG DEEP ON THIS ONE, AS YOU MAY HAVE BURIED THE MEMORY IN ORDER TO FUNCTION IN THE WORLD.

ONE LOVE.

NB - NOW ITS NO COINCIDENCE THAT THE BOOK OPENED ON CHAPTER 5 !!!! IS IT??

ANY CHANGES SINCE 2015?? WOULD BE INTERESTING TO KNOW HOW THE SHIFT HAS AFFECTED YOU...