I confess that whenever the conversation veers to other planets ,I often am unable to feel much connection . The first word that popped up when you said past lives was 'Sirius' . And definitely ,I was a messenger. And wasn't heard. And bow ,given the state of this planet ,it's achingoy heart breakingly similar . So much denial . So deep is the refusal to see what seems plainly obvious to me. 

Also this ties in very well with my deep feeling of unbelonging. 

Any suggestions for meditations to help me access ? 

Thanks !