Dear Open

Many thanks for the response. Your suggestions are very helpful, and I think I'd be able to go through the process. However, I'm also aware that healing and letting go can take some time. I wish I could easily switch it off but doing that is only deepening the wounds that I'm inflicting on myself. And I don't want to do that. I'm ok with the state of confusion I'm in. I need to find the source of pain so I could fully understand myself.

I started reading your book again, 5 gateways, and it's comforting in some ways.

It takes time to let go. To do that, I need to let go of the attachment that is so etched in my heart. Only time can tell. For now, I'm in the process of hurting. At least I'm aware of my feelings and I'm acknowledging each of them.
I cry and recognize the sadness and longing for healing. It's like an open wound in my heart that needs soothing.
This sadness is coming from my soul, feeling sorry that I can't seem to be in sync.
I appreciate the thought and time you spent in writing that response, Open.

With love and awe in things you do :-)