Open, thank you so much for taking the time to write this, and for being so understanding and thoughtful. Im going to do the practice, and try and move through this challenge. You are not kidding when you say its one of the hardest things to deal with! I know I need to do my inner work first. I do crave companionship and physical closeness with another person. I hope that by doing the hard work on the inside that the Universe will reflect back to me some love and sparkles on the outside! Its been too long! Thanks again Open :)