Trust, I guess I don't like it because it leaves one vulnerable to being disapointed. And it is in our lowest lows that we are most open to change. (last sentence is from Avatar: The ledend of Kora). I think I just don't wanna change, but I actually do.... Something in the big outside world clicked yesterday, and I broke my water bottle

I would say the universe is changing. I do not know how either or into what.
The observable world is always reflective of the inner world. I know if I don't cross the road now, in due time there will be another opening in between the cars. Just hope I take it :/

And thanks for the reply dude!