Hi Rayko...

    "Trust, I guess I don't like it because it leaves one vulnerable to being disapointed."

There's lots to look at in this inquiry. Being disappointed about something would strongly suggest an investment in a particular outcome - if we can unwind the need for anything to go a certain way, then disappointment fades away.

And to me, vulnerability is the place where magic happens - and absolute vulnerability is where absolute magic happens. By being prepared to bear oneself down into the infinite possibility of the moment - which means you can't predict a certain outcome completely - then you open into this hallowed place. But yes, it does require an inordinate amount of surrender. But that's when it all takes off.