Turbulent times with lots of things being triggered for me at the moment, so that by the time I am about to write something here, the next trigger has already carried me away to something else. Still let me share something about one of last week’s triggers. About a week ago I found a small piece of big tooth that had broken off stuck in my gums. Even though it was only a small piece, somehow it triggered quite a bit of internal density. As someone who tends to let the body heal things naturally, rather than going to doctors or taking medication, teeth problems and dentists are a tricky one (luckily I have always had healthy teeth without too much problems). And I could feel how in this case the piece of tooth was triggering something around ‘irreversible loss’. Although meanwhile the dentist has filled up the open space in the tooth with something artificial, the natural tooth will never heal back to its original state, it is lost forever, which somehow caused feelings of grief.... And before the dentist had looked at it to find that it was not a big issue, all sorts of worst case scenarios had already passed the scene in my head of the tooth having to be pulled out (even a bigger irreversible loss!). When I think about it, it all seems quite silly for a small piece of tooth to trigger this, but the dense feelings that arose in response to it were very real... And when I contemplate on ‘irreversible loss’ it is like an ocean of grief opens up. Sometimes it is like the loss of for example loved ones that are still around at the moment already lives and can be experienced within me. At the same time on a larger scale there is grief about the irreversible loss and destruction that humans are causing on this planet....

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