In reply to by Marye

I just re-read my above post from about a year ago about my writer's block to post here, as I am currently facing the same challenge again. The same tightness around my head that seems to get stronger every time I try to write something down and lots of excuses why to postpone writing a post to later (even as I am typing these words, the tightness strengthens). Most of the time the post is all ready in my mind, but as soon as I try to transfer it from my mind onto something, it is as there is some kind of internal interference that blocks it. I recently realised that perhaps this is somehow related to some kind of subconsicous resistance about ‘being recorded/captured’. I have quite a few photos of myself as a child with my hands in front of my face, because I didn’t want to be photographed, always made sure I would get out of the way if I knew a video camera was nearby (maybe that is also why I am quite comfortable being behind the camera, so that I know I won’t be captured myself). I also realised that I used to really hate talking to answering machines and in the current age I have never used the voice message functionality of Whatsapp for example. Some friends send me such voice messages and one friend encouraged me this week to do so too, and I could feel the enormous resistance arising of this awkward feeling of being recorded. One of my colleagues used to make notes of the ideas I would share verbally during a meeting, because she would know that as soon as she would ask me to write them down, something would block and nothing would come onto paper. Not sure what this is all about, but I thought to just put it out there and I can already feel that by typing on when the pressure on my head started to get really tense, it has now softened a bit.....