Hey Open-thanks so much for your reply. I think the mental gymnastics are an avoidance mechanism sometimes!! They have done their job in the last few weeks. Im going to take your advice and feel into my feelings. I need to make some quiet time! I am coming on the Openhand retreat in Glastonbury at the beginning of September. It will be lovely to spend some quality time with you all, and really feel into all these awkward places in my psyche. Thanks for the ongoing thoughtful and kind support. The crop circles look amazing! Faye :)