Hi Katie,

These words spike for me:

"There is a sense of being ashamed there, too."

"My cousin wrote to me this week and mentioned that I haven't been back in 9 years. I don't see why I should feel like I'm due to go back....Maybe I should just be truthful and say I had a spiritual awakening and can't relate to any of you anymore."

I'm feeling that the outer circumstances you describe point to inner questions that may be helpful to explore:

What part of myself lurking in the shadows can I no longer relate to?

How do I truthfully feel about hanging on to that part of me?

Am I truly honouring my feelings, or do I feel that I 'should' let go?

Thank you for sharing your journey and for providing a powerful mirror for me.

Wishing you well with this,

Much Love,