It seems like the new age community is full of mystical stories of individuals who have reached a place on their spiritual path that allows them to access other planes of existence, speak with other beings, or can see things that the rest of us cant.... unfortunately, i dont have any of those stories to share just yet, it could be i haven't been meditating for long enough, or that i have something "blocking" me from going deeper to figure this out on my own... but i hoping to hear some thoughts regarding a struggle with my ego I'm experiencing.
I was watching a Kung Fu movie a while back; the teacher asks his student to hold out his hand & create a space between his thumb and pointer finger just large enough to drop a ruler through both fingers… then he says: “Try to catch the ruler when I drop it, I will not tell you when I am going to let it fall.”
The teacher waits a long moment, then drops the ruler between the student’s open fingers; it falls to the floor.
The teacher then says to his student: “That is our first goal, to shorten the time it takes for your brain to register that the ruler has fallen and the time needed to inform the hand to close & grasp the ruler. Shortening this gap in your reaction will create a great advantage against your opponents; it creates the ability to anticipate and react with the proper technique needed to be the victor in battle.”
I hold Martial Arts in very high regards; the discipline, the unity of mind & body, & the philosophy all inspire me greatly.
I tell my fiancé often that I need to figure out how to create a similar gap in time between the moment phenomenon occurs in my life & the instant an emotion is generated in my brain... I need only a split second to create enough time to allow my Soul to intervene with my ego’s thirst for acting on the freshly generated emotion, but this brings up the question: how do I create the gap?
What I’m referring to is the ability to make a choice regarding my behavior… at this point, the hold my ego has over the control of my emotions is rather large and I do not have that choice, i often find myself apologizing for my behavior as opposed to controlling it. SO I am reaching out to some like-minded individuals to gain some feedback… what practices have you implemented in your daily life that enables you to create the gap?
Currently i meditate 2x daily for around 40 mins each session using certain sushumna & pranayama breathing techniques... i have been practicing meditation for about a year now, and am wondering if my persistence will eventually create what I'm looking for, or if there is another way to "speed up the process"...?
Your thoughts are welcome, Namaste!