Greetings and an introduction!

Hello to everyone! First, I'd like to show appreciation for having been welcomed to this group! Also, I'd like to apologize in advance if my internal struggles, laid bare, offend or discourage anyone. Though, I've always been aware of the differences between myself and others, and I've often pondered the universe as a whole, I've never been so overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings. My family recently moved to a place in the country. There's plenty I wide open sky and well water to drink. I mention the well water because, I believe it's the lack of fluoride in my water that has brought on these sudden, overwhelming changes. But, then maybe it's the fresh air or my extended exposure to the raw beauty of the earth. Either way, I'm changing and I'm scared. I feel so much energy swirling inside and around my body that I can't focus on anything beyond the feeling. At times, I can't even read or decipher the information that's coming at me, television, conversations, or anything really. I just sort of drift on the tumult that is my mind. I've tried meditation and though it works to calm my mind, I find myself fearful once I start to truly disconnect from this reality. I spring up like a scared rabbit and busy my body with menial tasks. Anyhow, that's just the tip of the iceberg that is my existence right now! Any insight would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much just for reading. It helps to know that I'm not alone.

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Thank you! It really is jut the stripping away of the perceived reality. Whenever we are faced with changes it's scary. I shouldn't be surprised the biggest change I my life is the scariest one!