I felt like starting a thread of my own, as I'm really confused about how to proceed with what is unfolding for me, so maybe sharing helps to unwind the confusion.
A few days ago a truth bomb shattered a layer of identification. I think most people, myself included, believed I am a sensitive, meek and shy person. I am wondering if there is still some truth in that, but I realised I was hiding behind this 'vulnerable girl' image to cover up the rather dissociated, manipulative 'narcisstic' layer that is behind that. I find myself suddenly in a state where I'm almost completely devoid of emotion, or at least compared to how I was before. I do see this was already there in the background, but that a deep shame kept me from being honest and expressing it.
I felt like going crazy for a few days, but at the same time there was also an incredible sense of lightness. I'm trying to work with the shame and just honestly express about this newly emerged side, although it's not pretty.