I am new to this forum and very grateful to have found it.I am sure this topic must have been discussed before but wanted some insight and support regarding my situation. I have been on spiritual path for 8 yrs now . I have done several meditations retreats is US and it has become a daily practice for me. I also saw the 5 gateways video yesterday and had a big "aahh" moment as every thing mentioned there resonates completely with my life right now. I feel I am in gateway 3.
Recently I have been having some deeper experiences after meditations. Needed advice and insight and guidance to understand what is happening. I go into deep meditation just after a few minutes, and after some time I feel lots of vibrations and tingling sensations all over the body. They are very strong and feels like a energy surge in the body. The whole body feels numb and paralyzed. ( I was in a group meditation yesterday, although I opened my eyes, and was listening to the announcements , I had a feeling I am not there in the body) again the energy became strong and lots of vibrations ). I observed fear coming up as if the body is going to die, I went deeper into it and the fear dissolved and I was left with a feeling of lot of peace. The mind was clear with out any conflict.It took me a long time to get up and be normal again , but there was lot of clarity in mind after that. The energy and vibrations remained with me for some time and I kept on observing them. When I stood and started walking then I felt as if I am possessed by some energy and could not walk properly for sometime and was stumbling. It remained with me until I reached home. The vibrations and tingling stopped after i got home but I felt energetic and at peace all day yesterday.
Fear is starting to rise for me today as I am playing the role of observer, Thoughts like what was that experience? Was it a spontaneous panic attack? all these questions are coming up in the mind. I have had spontaneous panic attacks before but they were very random and stayed for seconds or minutes, but these felt like much deeper and very strong and have been happening to me right after meditations. Any guidance or insight will be very helpful.
One positive thing that came out of all this is I know how death feels like , the body is gone and the spirit merges into the oneness. Fear comes up now and then and the only way I have understood to handle it is to just go deeper into it and play the role of observer. My practice has been to be the observer and I constantly feel the presence , the vast awareness that is there( once in a while I loose it but I bring my attention back to this presence).Any guidance or support regarding these experiences is highly appreciated. . This is the second time I am having this out of body experiences after meditations.
In love & Light,