Ok so i feel to explore my on going tower block dreams that have been recurring for years. No matter what I go through they seem to emerge, at least once or twice a week. I'll write a little about it and if anyone senses something, please share :)
I've drawn quite a few 'tower block' experiences in life. My nan and grandad used to live in a big council high rise in Peckham, I spent a lot of time there. Also when I lived as a student in Amsterdam they housed us in these two huge council blocks that faced each other. I've had a bit of a fascination with what you could call slums and areas of deprivation. I remember I had a job for a while working at the department of housing and used to go with the DG to visit the housing estates most neglected that needed funding. I'd feel very drawn to these places but go almost into a void like state when I was there. I know this could be reflective of working with the shadow. But it hasn't stopped. In the dreams there tends to be two high rise council buildings in different settings, I'm alone and live in one of them. I feel a strange mix of somehow allowing myself to be there and confusion - and have to pretty much dodge the people around me. I'm not looking for a way out, I accept it. These scenes I see are old - like I've seen them many many times. These dreams are grey and angular the tower blocks are bleak. I can't put my finger on the feeling that I have in these dreams - it's hard to put words round - it's like they are home but at the same time there's such a void like isolation, but it doesn't bother me too much. It could easily reflect the outer world and my part in it - but there seems to be more to it. I don't know why they continue. There is a sense of being ashamed of being there too.
Any reflections very welcome :)
Thank you k X