Wow - there is so much to relate with in this article. There is a deep acknowledgement inside of the influences I have been feeling...the sticky bonds of familial and friend/tribe connections and how that has felt more important than the individual journey - a sort of sacrifice of individual expression for the cohesiveness of the whole...a sacrifice of the potential higher reformation of the energy in the unwitting holding to the lower one.

The pulling apart has felt like losing parts of myself and now there is a crippling sense of paralysis and perceived disability...when I stay with it I feel panic and hard to breathe...getting pulled into distraction and habits to ease off the intensity. I don't "get" this feeling of feeling unfunctional as an individual...like there is a barrier between me and those I would interface with that I have a hard time navigating. The sense of family loss leaves a nakedness and unfamiliarity - like learning how to interface all over again without the comforts of that connection. Strange feeling to feel like a pillar rather than a net.

I have no direct sense of Sirian connection...but I do feel the influences you describe especially in the lower two chakras.

Someone - you articulated it all so well...giving words to the experience in a way that I really relate with - thank you for pulling the feelings into something more tangible.

Beautiful and incredibly helpful article. <3