We are on the final day of the Divinicus online retreat and it is turning out to be the most powerful retreat I have attended with Openhand. It may be because of where I'm on the journey at this particular time, because the shift is accelerating, or because we are a small group or perhaps all of it. It's activating much inquiry, with plenty of one-on-ones with Open and opportunities for transcendence. I think attending from home is also a great advantage, as I'm feeling the transformation from where I live, and could bring this higher energy into bear in the daily circumstances of these last few days. As the retreat is coming to a close, I'm also concerned that when the retreat is finished, I might go back into the simulation to a degree and blend with it. I realize this totally depends on me and how I choose to carry this transcendence forward. I realize the simulation offers soft comfort to pull you away from this daily confrontation. But the soul in me says, no more! I don't want to live in the smallness anymore!

Yesterday during the freewheeling session, the flow took me to the town where I saw the simulation in its most vigorous form, with people operating in programs, drugs, and stimulants to numb the pain of separation, the moon in the sky orchestrating it, and an energy that seems to have everything perfectly in control. I walked with my heart heavy. There was a huge billboard on the street that read "Illusion" and a giant picture of a cartoon crocodile. It was almost like the energy behind the scenes, where daring people to look from their smartphones and see the game that they were being played with. But not many were looking! A couple of times I read the sign, "Dare to dream big.". It takes courage to bring this knowing, realization, and energy into this world because I realize being oneself in their fullest version can be a threat to the system. Would I be too much for people if I became that? Who am I to speak my mind and act on my heart's desire? This is the small- self voicing its concern. The threat I mentioned only feels like a threat because the small self has identified with the drama and fears its obliteration. So it's actually threat to oneself. Is it worth carrying it around anymore? Certainly not!

I realize there is nothing that is actually limiting me anymore. Whatever I thought was limiting were misperceptions. We are all equally free to realize and actualize our divine selves in this world. As the floodgates to the soul have opened up, the outer world has equally opened up, with infinite possibilities for self-expression. What does this moment invite me? It's coming through my heart with no agenda for a particular outcome but with every possibility of growth and transformation. Fueled by some fears and false spiritual teachings, a crucial part of me was sitting back to a degree. That part is stepping forth. I dare myself to get it wrong, to fail, to injure and hurt myself, but to get back up and learn from what I have created. Do you dare to dream big?

Vimal